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When it was Good

2010-04-14T13:18:00.011+08:00

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering. A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty.

What do you live for when all you were living for is gone?

Kan best kalau hidop ni mcm kat crite Korea ke crite Hindustan ke. Ok la starting happy2, pastu nangis..tapi ending mesti happy balek! Sayangkan, tu smue fantasy jer. Anw, ive been wanting to blog but im kinda umm my lazy? lol.

As for now, i really dont knw where to start. Yang aku tau skrg, aku tgh lost. Seriously lost in confusion!

Dulu, aku ingat im the Happiest girl in the whole wide world. Dulu, aku ingat aku takkan go thru any of these shits AGAIN (note the CAPS!) . Dulu, aku ingat ive made the right choice. Dulu, aku ingat He's the one. Dulu, aku ingat He's the reason of my Happiness. Dulu, aku ingat aku will change my perception towards guys. Tapi...

Sekarang, mcm tgh slowly changing jer. Entahlah, im still unsure. Is this a sign or what?

Everything happened like so fast..out of sudden. He kept mum. Silence. Aku pon heran. Its friggin weird tau. And so i asked. I went shocked, like seriously shocked when he said this..

According to him, he's clapping with one hand. Sape2 yg bengz tu, tk pham, meh aku explain. Die ckp all this while die ingat aku ni mcm so called tk anticipate in this rlsp! Boleh gitu? Then, all these while, ive been entertaining to all his needs to smue ape eh? Pelik. pelik..

So, okayla, aku pon feeling2 'gentleman' konon2 nak pujok ah. Tapi, sad ah, aku rase aku dah terlambat. He's alrdy badly hurt by the time I so called come to the rescue! He was damn 'cold' towards me. Wait! In the very 1st place, Salah aku ke?

Just because all these while, he's the one who's been iniating this & that, not ME making the 1st move, itu jer..? Salah aku ke?

Is it wrong if I want to take things slow?
Is it wrong if I dont want to rush things? (eh, mcm same jer - mepek nye aku!)
Is it wrong if I want to be diff from any other couple?
Is it wrong if I want EVERYthing to go smoothly?
Is it wrong if I want EVERRYthing to go with flow??

Sekarang, sape nak gi jwb ni smue? tssk! Chill la bang, kite maseh 'new' sey. Still Fresh per. Why rush? Ok la, yg dh tak sabar tu, confirm krg tgh perah otak kenape eh si nad ni nak take things slow, padehal its been half a yr alrdy.. yadda yadda yadda. Okay look, i bet u all knw wat happened ..tsskk..alaa rlsp aku yg dulu tu. Tons of obstacles. Tons of arguments. Tons of fights. Ade jer flaws. Ive learnt like farking alot! Aku tknk banana fruit two times. Tkya la eh aku elaborate panjang2 psl crite lame, nanti ade jer yg tk happy. Yeaa.. anw, the thing is, Im taking a chill pill now so dont rush me. I thought we've talked abt this sey Al. opps! Did i just mention his name? haha! Purposely btw. :)

And krg nak tau. Exactly last yr, on this very week.. aku tgh having a bad term dgn si .. tssk dektu tu laa. Tgh time2 aku nk start yr 3.. issh! Stress otak aku that time! Yg pelik tu, this yr, same thing happened.. the same timing, same problem, same o same but DIFFERENT person! Aku ni pembawak sial per sial? Kan mak marah ni.. issh! *mengucap dua kalimah syahadah*

Someone told me, 'eh, kenape eh kau tknk go all out in this rlsp? Im sry to say this ah, dulu bile kau dgn si die tu, u're willing to do anything. No. In fact everything siak just to make it up back! I thought u r the firm kinda person. Ape yg kau nak, kau die2 nak. Beh skrg, ape lagi? Talk things out ahh..'

Ahh.. yer ckp memang senang. Yg hv to face everything tu aku. Well, tu Nadia yg dulu. Fanatic in Love! hahaha. Now, gua dah cuci tangan babe! Gua mau rilek ah! (eh, ape ni aku mrepek?) Ok la, personally, im tired! Tired going after or the right word is CHASING after guys! Keje paling bodoh utk perempuan! Waste time, waste energy, waste airmate, waste ape lagi eh? mcm2 ah. Ade byk lagi bende lain aku blh buat, why waste all these things? Cepat agree adgn aku!!

Ade tu ckp, 'Kau ni btol2 serious ke dgn die? Bile die dh ckp die tepok sebelah tangan tu, abeh kau tak tau nk blg die ah yg kononnyer he's not alone? Die tu tk syiok sendiri. Kau pon hv the same feelings towards him..ni smue aku kene ajar per? Ckp la kat die yg kau syg die...'

Lagi satu punyer bengz. MACAM MANE AKU NAK CKP KLAU DIE 'COLD' KAT AKU?? Mulot ni mcm kene locked gitu. Kau mane tau ni smue. Hari tu kat dlm krete, die diiiiiiaaaam jer all the way. Aku pon takot nk bobal. *Shakes head, kalah wirid u*

Sekarang ni, aku leave everything to takdir je la ehh. Whatever will be, will be. Sometimes, i wonder, why do i hv to face all these? Why do they hv to go? Do i deserve all these? Bohong ah kalau aku ckp aku tk rindu die. Tuhan je tau ape aku tgh rase skrg. Eh, aku dh this close to saying this feelings out sey.. Pergi tanpa kata. Tersikse oi batinku. Aku nak nangis, tapi siape nak dgr suare aku yg mcm Siti ni? haizz, entah la eh.. maybe its just not the right time. Guess so. Kalau aku ade opportunity, memang aku nk ckp tapi kalau memang dh tkde jodoh, then.. i shall angkat kaki jalan.

You could be the ONE

2010-03-05T23:52:00.018+08:00

Yayy!! Im back here getting my friggin' ass down on my bed as im typing this.. Oh well, if u are one of my loyal readers, u might be wondering whats up with my blog..? No stories, no updates, no nothing. yeaa.. been pretty bz getting the brain to work all out on my final year project. i really put my heart & soul to it, paid really much attention to it too. Alhamdulillah. All's done. Submission over. Critic session over. Gradshow panel done! Now, will only hv to wait for the big day, Graduation Show @ Suntec & official Graduation Day @ SP (duh!) To simply cut it short, Poly's done laa ppl!! Can u like believe it??? My life has never been this great!! Whoaa!

Plan/s up next..? well, ive applied for the NTU application B.A. in Arts. Umm, keeping my fingers crossed! Wish me luck ppl. Pray! Pray! PRAY!! :) Currently, im doing a part-time job as a.. wait.. i dont really knw how to explain this particular job. lol. okay2. lets put it this way. Im taking care of kids animal rides at malls/hospital. Most of the time, i'll be taking care of the kids more than i take care of the rides coz their parents would simply chuck their children and off they go for shopping or etc. -__- Basically, thats my job. Umm, quiting soon. Thats for sure! lol. Waiting for another job as a replacement! Maybe as a part-time pre-school teacher! And agn, wish me luck ppl!

Hahahaha!! i know right...actually u guys not that interested to read watever fark i've written above kan? kan? kan? CB laa... aku tau korang laa.. nak tau climax jerr. Okay chill. Coming ni.. coming.. Alright. Here u go! Apart from projects, theres sth else that actually caught my attention and made my time really packed till i didnt hv the time of my own to blog. lol. :)

errr.. for some of you, it might not be sth new that u gonna heard from me. well, i leave it to u to judge. :) Yup! U got it right! A new found friend again. But wait, even before u start to judge, let me tell u sth. This is gonna be the last one. Really. Promise! :) Coz he is something laa ppl! hehehe. *nadia-punyer-ketawe-mentel* i bet u can imagine huh! HAHAHAHAHA!! For now, i shall name him, Mr Arab. Gonna share with u some of my story and that if u bother to read la kan..

Few mths ago (Last yr)
While i was busy dealing with my projects.. He was busy too.. busy chatting with me. I got so irritated and blocked him instead (MSN). I also hv this dirty thought at the back of mind, 'well, he is just like any other guy whose trying the best way out to so called woo me.. alaa.. all guys are the same!' and so we didnt contact for like a few weeks. I thought he'd get bored out of me. Kalau aku, pon aku boring, bile chat kat msn, pompuan(refering to myself) ni mcm nak-taknak lyn aku! Beh, out of sudden, disappear just like that, not appearing in MSN. BUT, he didnt give up. He started convo with me @ FB instead. lol. So, i thought, 'tssk! okay la. Next in the list ah'

Lepas tu kan.. we started chatting again despite me having doing my projects! lol. ooOOoo of course! Akak ni kan multi-tasker. :)

oh b4 akak luper yerr anak2, si dekni ni suke sms! suke call! tak boring2!

Then, one night.. while @ Mak's place..

My hp's beeping sound woke me up. Used to receiving important sms-es only, I grabbed my hp and sleepily pushed the keys and read the message.

"What are you up to?" .. "Im revising my test...bla bla bla.."

Knowing who the sender was, I replied the message right away and placed the phone under my pillow, I tried to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the sms tone again.

"You really slping?.. Nad..Nad.." again, the message said.

Again, without bothering to reply, I went back to my lala land..

The next day i received this... !

"hmm.. i'm just like any other guy to you..."

Mampos! Only then i realised, how much he really mean to me.. yeaa! im that bad!

He never fails to cheer me up. Never gives up in getting to know me better. Not like any other guys eh, aku tk layan for weeks/months ke, then teros gone! He tried his best to be there when i was down with projects, when i needed help in printing my panels, accompanied me thru out the nightsss just to make sure i wont fall asleep on my lappy while doing my projects. I admit. I was blind. Blind like totalleeeehh. Tsskk! So okay. I slowly began to give him a chance and tried my very best not to think bad abt him. (err.. part tu fail ehh.. lol) Kite ni pompuan eh, cnnt give in entirely. Sometimes kene jual mahal sikit. Dignity tu kene jage eh. :)

yadda .. yadda.. yadda..

till now, we are still contacting. Frankly, among all guys ive known, so far la kan, this one stayed the longest. Umm, 4 mths..? 5? cant rmber! yaa i knw right.. CB kan aku. tssk! Some used to say, 'nad, aku kasi kau 2 wks jer. Kau confirm boring.'.. 'kk, aku kasi kau 1 mth ahh..' HAHAHAHA!! mostly all said the same including my sisters. lol.

No. im not using him for sure! i aint that kinda person. puh-leaasse! Im not playing with his feelings either. sheesh! How could u even think of that?? Tskk!

Umm well, i cant possibly describe him entirely here. Uve got to knw the person himself. U've got to judge him. I like the way he is. Kite mcm blh 'click' ah. Thats all i can say for now.. AND AGAIN if u ppl wanna see us be together, i need ur prayers! hahahah!

alaaa.. i think i sounded despo gitu. No la. Personally, i think, for now, its still to early to say anything or even to promise anything. I dont wanna rush things coz im afraid things might go cocky in some ways. At the end of the day, korang2 jgk will hv the last laugh kan? kan? Nabei! haha! We've decided to take things slow. Kalau ade ehem2 jodoh.. adelah.. if not then, i dont mind. im leaving everything to fate.

Oh, i thank Him for leading me to this route! Alhamdulillah.. :)

Well, blame this person.. coz of him, ive been neglecting my baby blogger! HAHAHAH!!

You've proven me wrong.
and yes! Tak smue lelaki same!:)

one less lonely girl.. ~~

nahhh..

2010-01-25T09:31:00.003+08:00

losing interest in you. now, how?

its been like this all the while.

oh wells..

yeaaa im a bitch! so?

'entertainment' is badly needed here!

better dont 'press' the minyak!!

i can get bored that easily!

getting bored and bored even bored-er!

-____-

p/s : Beh cuak ahh? Kental ah nad!

Brani buat, brani tanggung! Padan muke kau! Slamatss!

i want to find...

2010-01-22T16:19:00.003+08:00

“ Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.' ...”

Daddy's Girl

2010-01-16T00:31:00.007+08:00

had a short convo with abah while having lunch..

me : (literally dancing happily towards the kitchen table. smiling all the way. sat next to abah)

abah : eleh senyom2.. i know alrdy. dah agak dah..

me : e'eh. abah tau! heeeheeee

abah : i know. lepas satu, satu eh. u dont think i dont knw. abah dah masak dgn prangai ya la

me : aiyoyoyo! magic ahh. mcm mane ni abah tau? hahahahaha!!

abah : (smiling again..)

me : bagos la kalau abah dah tau ehh. hehehe

abah : hmmm.. i knw everything. i can read ur mind. kau tak tau. kan abah yg lahirkan kau

me : -____- e'ehh kelakarnye bahh..

abah : (talking to mummy coz he knws mummy alrdy knw) this time sape pulak?

mummy : (smile ajerr..)

abah : ohhh. awak dah tau ehh. hehehe btw ya, i told u alrdy kan how to choose friends. u must be very smart in doing this. u're a girl. abah tknk ya dibodoh-bodohkan lagi. ingat... yadda yadda yadda....

Its like miracle

2010-01-15T15:54:00.008+08:00

All human beings have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them to go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out. The 'Grand' essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.What everyone wants from life is continuous and genuine happiness. now, are you happy? i know i am.

Well, this is just the start of the game... we'll see how it goes.

to those whom alrdy knw me. u knw how diff for me to really opens up the heart and let the heart be drowned with love. u knw that its not easy to win the heart. not that i dont wanna be loved. its just that im afraid of getting hurt again. now, wats love actually? do u really knw? personally, i think love hurts. 've been making friends lately. nah.. it doesnt seem to work. no dont go there. i dont literally go desperately find them. it comes naturally. :) call me choosy, bitchy, stuck up or watever it is. i dont give a shit to all that. this is me. the way i am. therefore, i shall conclude that im just not ready in taking the risk of getting into rlsp. till? oh well, till the right one comes. :) take a chill pill man...

oh. say helo to my new friend found!

alot like love

2010-01-05T14:57:00.008+08:00

yes! yes! its been a while since i last update this bloggy of mine. been busy. nope in fact extremely busy helping out my cuzz doing her last min wedding prep. Alhamdullillah all turned out as planned. to u nawar, welcome to our family! :) err. not much photos here. maybe u guys might wanna view my fb instead. on behalf of the newly-wed, id like to take the opportunity here to thank every1 who came down to lend their helping hand and to make the wedding ceremony a success one. to nurasikin ahmad & ahmad munawar, may Allah bless the both you. semoge berkekalan hingge ke akhir hayat. InsyaAllah. :)

feeling laa konon. lol. :))

see familiar faces?

its abah's idea btw. lol. :)

okay. its finally 2010. every1's talking abt it. New yr! New yr! must hv resolution la whatsoever. must go countdown. strip urself. wear 'biginee-s'. .. so on and so forth. err. wats soo 'hoo-haa' abt it? im darn surprised laa. those who celebrated nw yr were mostly malays. sry no offence here nor am i criticising any1 in particular. well, this is just a random thought of mine. oh well.... *speechless* anw.. some1 asked me how i celebrated my nw yr. and so i ans, 'do we hv to celebrate? is it a must?..' and he stayed mum. coz he knws the fact that its not appropriate for us muslims to celebrate. some even asked, where am i gonna celebrate? look. do u ppl even knw when is Muharram? oh, wat is Muharram? lol. well agn.. *speechless* okay. take note. id lyk to emphasize here that im not hinting or tryna discriminate any1 in particular here. and i dont wish to see my tagboard being flooded with ridiculous issues. and if u're still not happy after reading then u can just close this current window and buzz off. no. really. i really mean it. :)

well for me.. frankly, i didnt set my new yr resolution. for now, i wont. i mean wat for? but hey, do u see sth..? lol. actually i kinda hv a resolution. MY resolution is to not to hv a resolution! ok im going off track alrdy. as i was saying, i dont think i need a resolution for now coz back then, i hv everything nicely set in my mind but everything went all ruined. tsk. 've learnt my lesson. i just wanna let everything flow by itself, naturally i'd say. for now, no future plans except to further my studies. period. :) no bugging of questions pls.

course - landscape architecture is ending pretty soon. more events coming up next. grad show @ suntec followed by the official grad ceremony. wah.. time flies darn fast. and yeaa.. im twen-teen! i knw right.. very old arldy. :) and as for now, life's been pretty good for me. im enjoying every secs of my life. fully contented.

oh.oh. yeaa if u guys read my recent wall post @ fb "Why get attached and make one man miserable when I can stay single and make thousands miserable? oh well..HAHAHAHAHAH!!! *nad's-evil-laugh* " well.. hahaha! dont blame me. im being taught this way by those jerks out there. if they can hurt girls.. why cant me, (a girl, duh!) hurt them? revenge is sweet u knw. hahahahah!! judge me all you want. i dont give a darn. call me a bitch or watever. i like the way it is now. wait till i cant handle those lahabao's and reach maybe 15-20 of them annnnnd till mum nags abt hp bill... then i shall stop. lol. :))))

Dear Life - A Silent Love

2009-12-18T01:19:00.010+08:00

It all started when she re-activate that acct... while she was down. Terribly down over someone who used to be a part of her life... And she thought, that somehow changed her life lyk totally..

She dated a boy.

He was an average kind of boy who likes to tease her, who creates real jokes, who managed to bring her smile back, who managed to bring her out of the world of sadness and really understands her esp when she was down. She doesnt really share with him all her secrets. Merely, sharing stories abt how she ended up being single.

Replaying movies in her head of how things used to be (smelling 'His' scent, holding her in his arms, seeing his smile) only to wake up in an empty bed ALONE and LOST...

Getting through the dark days took so much effort... She would have to FORCE herself to roll out of bed every morning.

Constantly checking her phone and email to see if 'he' called or left a message... Maaann she hated her phone at times... it's NEVER shy to let her know she has 0 missed calls.

Instead of referring to a psychiatrist, her therapists were McDonald's.... KFC... and any another junk food that could temporarily take away the pain she was feeling.

The things in life she used to enjoy didn't seem to have meaning anymore.

NON-STOP thinking of her ex... It's like 'he' secretly hijacked her head or something... Constantly rehearsing what she could have said, what she will say if she were to see him again, and analyzing why he really left her.

Enormous feelings of depression.

AND.... the mere thought of her ex being PHYSICALLY INTIMATE with another person was enough to make her sick.

He was very quiet, he would just listen to what she had to say. She found him easy to talk to and she could talk to him about everything. He just comforted her and said everything would be okay. He gave her words of encouragement and helped her get over 'Him'. They chatted, they smsed, they talked... and finally.. the very 1st date! :)

That first meeting was a total blast. He's nice. Awesomely nice. he's the kinda laidback person. take a chill pill u know. she lyks it! They spent a few hours talking & talking lyk non-stop. They totally had fun. She could see deep in his eyes, he's happy being with her. BUT, yeaa.. there's always a but. he doesnt seem to really give his full attention towards her. she thought, he sees his ex gf in her. and so, she was brave enuf to let him reveal his love story. He went thru almost the same kinda Journey of Love as her. he just broke up with his ex gf. at that point of time, they've not been together for lyk err less than a mth? oh, they've been together for quite some time alrdy, errr, 7-8 yrs? yeaaa. tat long.

and so she asked, ' do u still hv feelings for her? ' and he said, 'nahh.. not really. wait. actually im not sure myself. i started to love her since way back when i was in sec sch. i was the one who proposed the idea of breaking up cause i couldnt stand with her attitude. She's acting lyk a small kid who likes to sulk all day long. and, the worst part, she has bad temper. i hate it so much!! ..'

she continued... 'but what if she wants you back... i mean, ppl change u see. furthermore u said, u loved her. i bet u do still...'

he replied ' yeaa. i cant deny. i still do. but, i guess we are just not meant to be.'

she continued... 'hey, come on.. dont say that. i think i knw wats shes feeling ryte now. I know the overwhelming amount of pain and sadness she's going through right now. Heartache is a devastating experience. ive been in her place before. it was soo darn horrible, terrible everything that is associated with that. going thru a break up is darrnnn sucky u knw. Mine was worst! he left me with no explanations. the 'best' part, i didnt knw wat ive done till he made that kinda decision.. please. think over it again..'

he replied... 'no. i dont even wanna think abt it. if, let say, we are fated, then, i wld want her to come 'clean' to me. ive had enuf. me and her.. we can no longer understand each other! it takes 2 hands to clap u knw...to me, u are special. '

she continued....' errr, so, are u trying to say we can clap our hands together?'

he replied... 'yeaa! sure! (giving out his left palm) come! high 5!

she refused to do so and just smiled instead.

he also said that he would wanna know her more. hopefully more than a friend. he really wanna get over his past life and move on..

That night she went home with all kinds of feelings stucked in her. She was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But she knew that there was something else about him that she liked. She thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that she was feeling. But somehow, she knew deep inside that she really felt sth different. All she does was to keep those feelings to herself. She wanted to tell him so bad abt wat she really felt towards him but she was too scared and frightened. She'd had enuf of getting hurt by ppl of his species. She'd enuff tearing over them. She felt that she wanna be free from love. And... there's also sth held her back from letting her feelings out. She realised that she should nope infact MUST do sth to not get involve in ppl's rlsp. That guy still do hv feelings for his ex. gf. he simply cant get over his ex gf. she could feel it. she could see it. being a human being, not being selfish, she made a decision. yes! a final brave decision. She let her feelings go and told herself that someday she would simply get what she wants. yes, someday. no rush!

Well unfortunately, the 1st date only lasted for a little while though.

She tried to create a 'barrier' between them. Their 'friendship' begin to drift apart. Ignored his sms-es. ignored his emails and so on.. no matter how bad she actually missed him, no matter how bad she actually wanted to hear his voice, no matter how bad she actually wanted to see him, spending time talking non-stop... she knew she's doing the right thing.

and soon... yeaa pretty soon after that... she finally got to know that he's back with his ex gf. Deep down her heart she knew she's done her part being a human. A real Human.

and the girl was me.

this is the truth. well, this is it.

I mean, u know the fact that u still love each other, missing each other, still cant get over each other.. each times u see things, it'd remind u of ur exs'. well, i know how it feels lyk exactly! been thru it many times. i simply know how it feels lyk when u know there's someone out there trying their really best to destroy ur rlsp. i dont wish to be 1 of them. id rather save the rlsp. can u imagine, in just 1 particular rlsp that i used to hav, there's sooo many out there who tried to destroy mine... but i guess... i lose in the last battle. im just way too tired to fight for it. Sometimes in life, its okay to give in. Good things come to ppl who PATIENTLY wait, rmbr? yeaa.. i believe.. strongly believe someday i would simply get what i want. yes, someday. no rush!

okay. enuff of all those bitter sweet memories.
leaving all those behind. stepping into a new future. :)
and oh. a fren said this to me.
I look so good without you, Lookin' fresh and brand new.

well, its a brand new year! before i forgot.
Salam Awal Muharram to all Muslims!
take note ehh ppl 9 Muharram ehhh..
im soo gonna be Twen-teen! lol:)

p/s : to you ... im sorry. yes. i did all that with a purpose.
on another note, may u hav all the happiness with her. :)
im happy for you dear friend.

chasing windmills

2009-12-15T16:38:00.011+08:00

uncivilised ppl = crap! (sucha turn off)
well, u know who you are. :)

anw, more and more 'oudated' updates!! lol.

did a 'make-over' to one of our friends during studio time. lol! looking darn sweet.

sweet as meeeee. hahahahah. :)))

felt so honoured to do this. she had so much trust in me! gawdd! lol.
my 1st official attempt doing this so pardon me if u think im not pro. :)

okay. 1st thing 1st. i was lazy to put on make-ups. lol. went to geylang to hunt for cheap baju-sss that were havin sale ystrdy. oh, the baju-sss wld be worn on along syikin's wedd day. with the four pretty ladies. we really searched high-low. finally, decided on these pretty mini kurung that really suits my 2 lil rascals. very lacy2 gitu. sweet! these 2 lil rascals all ready for tunang! lol. mum bought for them at $100 for two suits @ Bimla! coolshyytt! *no problem ade Bimla* they are really havin crazy sales. well, adek & me decided to go hunt our baju-sss @ KL. if theres none that we're interested in, then shall go down to geylang agn.

wanna see PUSAT DAGANGAN DUNIA....???

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

for some, u might alrdy know, i 'ditched' the SIA cabin crew interview last sat. changed of plan. I will only apply if i know i cant make it thru to NTU. mummy & abah are very supportive abt me being a cabin crew. Well, on the other hand, education comes 1st. cabin crew can wait. :)) mummy also said, she's willing to contribute $$$ for my studies if needed. omgawwwd! cant blif this. am counting days to my official grad day!! :)))

annddd sooo, i feeling2 cabin crew laa kan... abah laughed at me!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!

i say, its holiday time!

2009-12-09T19:43:00.016+08:00

friggin' mad with this particular matrep!
shyt! matreps do exist in poly too okay!! fcuk!
he said this to his friends right in frt of me and gurlnextdoor.
"..die lawa cume...die pkai tudong.."
shitty-shitty-bang-bang betol ni mamat!
naseb ade headgear kat kepale tadi, klau tak,
confirm aku sunatkan die 2nd time!!!

and u knw wat mat,
"...kau handsome..cume kau pkai anting2.."
tsskk!! wat a pity maaann!
to me, (not being bias) whoever puts on a hijab, she'll
definitely look gorgeous even way better than those in
'bee-gi-nis esp in leapord preeeengssss'!!!
i hv a fren who appear to be sexy everyday, but when she put on hijab on her,
wahh! i tell u! darn sweeet!! :))
another one very chi looking, but when she put on her 'costume' prayer,
wahhh, mcm feeling2 ayat2 cinta uuuu.. :)))

anw...

SEM BREAK IS HERE! Two months of pure joy, oh loves. yeaa!! sub's done! crit session's done! This time, the holidays will consist of pure excitement! how cool is that? I can enjoy my holidays in peace. oh im sooo darn proud of my work this time round! lol. i managed to do sketch up and photo montage! awesome! some might be saying, '...laaa.. stakat..' wait! this is my first attempt after 3 fcucking yrs in SP. yeaa! im that slow! lol. nevertheless, im still happy with the outcome no matter how bad the lecturer commented during the crit! lol. come let me share with u ppl. :)

Another quick update on past events. Hari Raya Haji , Da's 13th & Cin's 12th Bdae! :))

okay2. lets take a decent one okay..

@ Flamingo (Halal Thai Restaurant) = AWESOME!

our waitress for the day. :)

The authentic Mango Salad! Yummy!

Blackpepper Chicken Rice

Tom Yam Seafood

darn marvellous i tell u!!
one word -- LAVAgotooo!!

didnt manage to capture before it was 'terkam'.
see the out-kam!

*shakes head* tsskkk x1000..

Yeaaa! its Green Day!! Very Eco laaa fam aku! :))

Happy Bdae to both of u lil rascals!! may Allah bless u! go catch CITA2 not CINTA. listen to me! yeaa! i really mean it! now its the crucial time for u girls to prove to abah & mummy that u girls can be 'someone' one day! i have faith in u girls. focus on ur studies! Enjoy ur teenage life as much as u can but do set a limit. u girls really hv got to listen to me coz if u choose to take the wrong path, u'll ended up lyk me! really! trust me! so, all the best girls! love u! :)))

anw, a piece of kata2 madah pujangga by an Anony.

Cinta sebenarnya tidak buta. Cinta adalah sesuatu yang murni, luhur dan diperlukan. Apa yang buta ialah bila cinta itu menguasai dirimu tanpa pertimbangan.

wat do u think? well, i guess, actually its kinda true. Cinta tu tk la bute. yg bute tu sebenarnye hati kite sendiri coz we tend to do sth without thinking many2 times. just becoz theres a saying that goes.. ' think twice before u do anything..' i mean, its rather stoop! if its sth that's gonna affect u & ur future, ckop ke stakat think twice? ever heard, turut kata hati badan binase. turut kata otak sendiri habes laaa kau!! (ini line aku mcm sape mkn babi die berdose. lol. ) so, do give urself a thought lyk many2 times even before deciding. u may choose to ask opinions too. sometimes, when our heart go totally blinded with love, our eyes would be blind too. all we see/smell/hear are everything nice. taik kate chocolate. Darah kambeng kate strawberry jam. kentot busok nak mamp kate wangi. motor engine kate gitar strum. smemek johnson kate handsome! i mean we can really go blind as in not literally. its just that we didnt notice. yeaa.. sucks ryte! also, sometimes kan, ape yg kite nampak tak same mcm ape org laen nampak. dah bute segale-galenye la kaaan. tats y i mentioned earlier on, its super not wrong to get views/opinions. jgn pulak kau tk blh accept. kalau gitu, too bad than, u've got to suffer alone! cant be helped!

to u ppl out there! may u hv a tremendous holiday!! :))
Danau Kota.. here i come!!

YOU!!

2009-12-01T21:33:00.005+08:00

U insisted! Fine! I agreed. But... u know wat? ure just the same lyk the rest. To those who alrdy know me, u shld know that i dont freely let myself be in a guy's control. i dont anyhow make friends with guys. i tend to be very very choosy this time round. yeaaa choosy is the word! im not tryna appear super fcuking hot gorgeous babe in town here. well, if u think i do, haha Alhamdullilah then. the think is, ive had enuf with this kinda of species. u dont deserve to be called as a lelaki. Jantan suits u ppl. wat do u think girls?

yadda.yadda.yadda. and the list goes on. Two down! Okay next pls! :)))))

Well, no apologies here. yeaa. im that cold. only one chance wld be given! again i repeat myself, ONE!!! told u ppl im'a changed Nadia. i used to be the one giving in lyk ALL the time! well now, no more! anw y wld i wanna waste my time entertaining u ppl? ive got my own life to deal with. lyk the saying goes, there are still many fishes out there. call me anything. i shall leave it to u to judge! i dont give a shyt! seriously. hah! dont blame me for acting this way lyk so abrubtly. blame YOUR SPECIES!! u guys thought me this way. i shall learn the tactics u guys used to hurt girls. if u ppl can do it, so can NADIA!! yeaa, im that evil! again thks to u guyss!! so, do spread ard yeaa that Nurul Nadia is the most dangerous girl in town (plus hot ehh. lol. )

and to you, yeaa. watssup maann? ape ni confront2 ni smue? time lambat ahh. yeaa the truth is ugly! sadly, uve got to accept the fact that ever1 now knows abt u. come on la. its a super fcuking hot issue! Good things must share tau lyk how that person shares with me regarding this particular 'mak-budak' issue. tkya cover2 laa. malu perr? brani buat, brani tanggung ahh. so much of being a mother of a child. hah! puhleeeassse! oh God, please show me the right path. smoge aku tk tersesat di jln mu. Amin.

I Am Who I AM

2009-11-30T22:59:00.004+08:00

do bear these in mind.. (u might one to consider)

when i reply to all ur msges, that doesnt mean i love you.
when i answered ur calls, that doesnt mean i love you.
when i laugh over your lame jokes, that doesnt mean i love you.
when i agree to go out dating with you, well, again, that doesnt mean i love you.

annnndddd...
when i agree to all these.... that doesnt mean u own me.
i belong to my parents not any1 of you out there.

Hence, guysss bear in mind kaayyy.. :)))

" Aku tak mudah mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan aku jatuh cinta "

- Acha Septriasa

Aidil-Adha

2009-11-28T20:07:00.024+08:00

Salam Aidiladha ...to all.
Semoga kita dpat mengharungi liku2 hidup dgn penuh ketabahan.
Yang dah jatuh ditimpa tangga lalu dihempap dgn piano..
dan seterusnye digelecek bagaikan bola akhirnya
ditendang ke gawang gol..
harap tingkatkan tahap kesabaran anda semue yerrr..
Tempuhilah segale dugaan & rintangan dgn tenang..
Berpegang teguhlah pada Qada' & Qadar yg sudah ditentukan..

Sesungguhnye inilah sebuah erti pengorbanan...

*feeling2-lagu-P.Ramlee*
'..Berkorban....apa saja... harta ataupun nyawa...'

-_________________-

more pics to be uploaded. soon. yeaaa.. *nadia-pey-"SOON"*...
u wait. hahahaha!!!
:)

Its His Birthday

2009-11-17T23:56:00.004+08:00

okay confirm!! bapak aku 49 yrs old!! awwww dah tue laaaa die.. heeeheeeheee! :) but still cute & handsome!! i shall upload his pic 20 yrs ago someday. hot giler laaa!! cair akak! if i were to find bf, must be handsome lyk my abah! very difficult u knw to find. not many nowadays! tssskk!! anw, bah, i love you! sry for the belated gifts! blame it on my projects! glad u love those gifts! anddd omg! abah kissed me! the last time he kissed me was during raya! hahahaha!! :)

to abah, happy 49th bdae! may all ur wishes come true. ( to see ur 1st gorgeous daughter get married to the handsome-st prince on earth - ok lame! ) semoge dipanjangkan umor & dimurahkan rezeki byk2 sekali so that can give me some ehhh.. jgn lokek. hidop kene share tau bah. if u give $10, tk miskin pe. insyaAllah punye. hehehe. :)

okay. abah step cute! -__-
cik ohh cik. hidong maintain ehh.

elehh. action! humphh!

okay. this is funny!

abah : da..da.. tlg bukak. tangan abah cramp!
lol.
woit! jgn tgk perot abah aku ehh! tssskk!!

okay. im turning in alrdy. gotta meet those loves~~ early in the morn @ 'Paris'.

oh.oh. dinner date with mamamia on thurs!! wee!!! cant wait! :)

Can You Feel it?

2009-11-17T21:29:00.016+08:00

Time might lead me to nowhere and faith might break into pieces but I will always be THANKFUL that once in my life’s journey we became FRIENDS!

and sooo we had our grp outing last friday. had our dinner down at orchard coz all of us were craving for Cahaya. cool or waat? way before that, attended Boon Lay Sec Sch's Concert which were held at our very own sch. lol. SP yaaww!! :) love the hip hop dance by the kids. really reminds me of those days when i HAD to perform (notice the past tense. lol) in sec sch. with shahidah, farahzyan, ashyura, fadly & all... hahah! so much of us joining competitions here & there! sooo semangat wawasan 2020! hmm.. i just love dancing. all events, just name it, me and my grp of friends wld take part. malu tu memang malu ahh. smpai dh tk tau mane nk letak muke yg lawa ni.. hahaha. but its my passion laa. my parents dont stop. they dont encourage either. lol! :))))))))

" However rare true love may be, it is less so than true friendship... "

- La Rochefoucauld

ohhh. lets take a look what we ppl hv been doing in studio when the rest were bz
dealing with projects. :)
(pics were taken ystrdy btw)

This one usually bz blog-shopping.

the one below. busy!! very busy. busy watching 'Criminal Minds'.

this one is one retarded cum lamest guy i've ever met. but still, i love u laaa darling! :)

cute righhttt?? yup i know! thks! :)

Tuesday.... class starts at 10am. nurul nadia jayy was a good girl today. she came early. very early. earlier than nazurah rahmat. :) syabas!! ohhh. spent time in the studio blog-hopping, gossiping and stuffs for lyk 1 - 2hrs. then we all cabot. head down to JP. hahahaha! tssskk!! sesunggohnye kite bkn pelajar contoh! :) i know u all very kay-poh right want to see pics only.. see laaa. heeeheeee...

Dover Stn

KFC @ JP

we were trying to expand our noses. hahaha. see who's more kembang.. sioww!!
i guess, i won! lol.

anddd.. an impromptu one.

i love this pic of us!!! thank you fal! :)

oh. oh. oh. promoting! promomting! nice tak??/
nice ryte??? i know!
buy our service laaa! :)
(laaaa.. senyom tuu stop it ehh. mintak kene sepak)

okay! i look pale here! lol.

okay done! see ehh ppl. I finally feel myself moving along. Life's picking up and I no longer feel stuck. all thanks to those who managed to make me smile...smile... and smile lyk one mad woman. wait? woman ke? mak aku kate, prangai maseh budak lagi. hmmm.. anw, for now, those are enough to keep me lifted for awhile now. i appreciate everything that has been given to me. :)

anddd... i cant wait for abah to come back home!! i've a surprise for him!!! lol. its his 48th birthday. oh wait, issit 49th? shit! i'm not sure! giler punye anak! tsssk! neymind. later i shall ask mummy! :) jom ahhh kepo2 tgk ape akak beli. krg mesti nk tau kan??! standard ahh. :)

hmmmm...lalalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~

"I want to be your favourite hello and your hardest goodbye. "

mungkin nanti..mungkin esok..
only you know.
good nite. :)

Awesome laaaaaaaaaaa

2009-11-14T16:50:00.009+08:00

someone once told me.

' ...i think u need to tell ppl that u've moved on. its okay if u've not.
this is to convince ppl ard u that u're one strong girl...'

and so i said.

NO! i dont need all that. im not a hypocrite. dont wish to become one. i am a girl with a strong heart. yes. i dare to say that. im no longer the girl with the weakest heart on earth. im a changed nadia but unfortunately the gila girl is still in me. lol. wat made me change? hmm.. ntah ehh. i guess its time for me to step into a new world. cey, sekali-sekale nadia bobal.. hehe. i mean, till when? im getting sick & tired reminiscing the past which kept haunting me. enuff! those were just plain nightmares. anw, its alrdy proven that i've alrdy totally moved on! cool kan?! haha! i know! A big NO-NO if u ppl were to think, 'ohh, she's moved on coz she's found a replacement...' im still single laa ppl. come on laa. why rush into a rlsp? take chill pill maaan. (: No one made me changed my way of thinking. apart from those motivational words given by my love ones. i did this all by myself. yeaaa! surprising ehhh. yup. i know. thank you!

anyway... today....

one word

AWESOME.

okay.. to my girls who've been wondering wats the surprise all abt.. okay. here you go. went out wif a new found friend of mine. ( well, i dont literally go search high & low to find him. its called fate, i guess.) hehehe. *nadia-punye-grinning-mentel* yes. this time round, i kept it low. really low till even my best girls tak tau. yeaa. i'm that bad! hah! no! im soooo not sorry. lol. i dont want to make a big hoo-haa this time round. (: soo, shhh.

as said above, AWESOME! yeaa thats the word. 1 day. yup. just 1 day of pure joy! oh loves! had lots & lots of sharing moments. Photoshootssss despite the drizzling. oh wait, this is strange. it has been raining tau these few days. its lyk pouring heavily laa. but today.. seems lyk the weather is being extremely kind to me. Oh thk u Allah. (: lets dont ckp byk2 here. yeaa.. thats abt all. other than that... later2 can talk ehhh.. so for now

.....shhh.... (:

pictures yet to be uploaded.
there's sneak peek though in case u're blind.
u may kindly scroll up top most of this page! lol.

oh. journey to 'PARIS' was accompanied.... thks Daleeya! its been a while since we last met ehh girlfriend. hope u had a tremendous day with ur bf! (:

Tie Dyes Are Back

2009-11-12T10:12:00.013+08:00

- Hafiz Shukery -

(Photo courtesy of Nazjayy)

No! No! This isn't my new boyfriend! hahah! :) just an acquaintance whose apparently supporting Truxiefloir. Oh, Truxiefloir is an online shop promoting Tie dyes. We either provide u with a ready-made top or u can even choose to provide us with ur own tees. cool ryte! yup! i know! kate Nuhrolllssss kaaann. :) duhh! anw, do support us okay! Go to http://truxiefloir.tumblr.com/ to view more of them! oh, oh. dont forget to come down to Home Club!! :) take note : FREE for flea!! Truxielfoir is having a flea too! u better drag ur asses down to Home Club!! :) As for the gig thingy, i guess u've got to pay.

p/s : * To you babe, im not blaming u .. not even hating u. u've got ur own rights. me too. i dont wish to get involve. its between u and her. and to the rest of you whom alrdy know, lets not add more salt to the wound. Lets just leave the matter to the both of them and hope for the better. i dont expect all this to 'pop' out! pls! pls! do sth. dont jeopardise wat we have. i love u ppl! :)

Countless Care-less Mistakes

2009-11-09T19:41:00.013+08:00

So here i am lazing on my bed while typing this and I've decided to update this dusty Bloggy of mine. You can thank School Project for the negligence. hah!Finally Integrated Project 3 has successfully been submitted. 1 more Joint Crit Session, yup just 1 more (or issit 2..? errr.. or 3? lol) okay2! aku confident! i say 3 more to go! and yes! DONE with poly life!

Had sleepless nights. ohh! tats soo norm! Slept at 4am last night, woke up at 5.30am and my eyes were horribly swollen. I was scared shitless if were i to overslept. Had myself THREE hps to wake me up. Dada's, Abah's and of course mine! Thank you soo much to Abah for sending me to school. Blame it on my TWO 3D models. hah! ohh. thanks again to Abah for helping out to do my model. Even if its only touching up here & there, it does mean alot to me! :) annndd i really appreciate ur effort for doing my 'building' of the model. (i shall take pic of that soon!) Sry for rejecting that 'building'. :( coz of me u had to stay awake the whole night. coz of me u had to report to work late! :(

Thank you to u too for accompanying me to stay up late doing my last min project! (dah ckp ehh? ) Ohh. the sweetest part was, both Abah & Mummy actually stayed up late together with me. and guess wat? we ended up sleeping together! yes! i mean it! literally sleeping together. I was in the middle of them. All of us slept in the study room or rather the 2nd living room. My 3 sisters had all the 3 rooms to themselves. One each! cool or wat! hah! oh back to sleeping together with the both of them, i mean how many of u sleep w ur parents at the age of 19?? i repeat, NINETEEN. haha. the last time i slept with only the two of them was when i was 2 yrs old?? waaay before Dam was born. annndd..Mummy even prepared sufficient food so that i can stay awake! yarr! i need food! she even bought 'tit-bits' *inside joke* for me! oh.oh. there was once when i was doing my project, mummy called. asking us out for late dinner @ BBQ chicken house. cool!!

Reached school. smpai je class till abt 3 pluss. abah kept on msging and calling me. hes lyk waaay jittery to hear comments by mdm zai. hah! told him, isn't my turn to present yet. Mummy called too. haha! haiyoohh.. -_-

Mummy , Abah... Thank You sooo much! i love you!

Apart from all that. Apparently, nurul nadia is feeling down. so so down till she can almost kiss the ground!! Cried twice. no. no! in fact thrice!! no!! dont go there! cried, not over lahabao. to me, he's dead. i even had a 'tomb' specially for him. siap dgn landscaping lagi!! in malay... aku dah lame 'kubur'-kan die. die dah terkubur kat dlm hati aku. cey, mendalam ehh! haha!

okay2. waaay out of track aldry. cried due to TWO embarassing incidents. The first one was still considered ooookay laa. im afraid not the 2nd one. im still quite disturbed by it. Im blaming you! yes you! u r the cause of what'd happen. i swear, i dont like you alrdy! humpphh! errr... for now i guess??..

On another note thks to thos e2 aunties. :)

now ppl, answer this question below.

what would be the 1st thing u'd do when u encounter someone's in trouble in the public?? i repeat... in the PUBLIC...!!

a) look & watch the 'drama'.. wait till the nxt 'episode'..

b) watch & laugh..

c) pretend didnt notice

d) give a helping hand willingly

i bet most of u would never choose ( D )..
F A R K !!

so sad.. so so sad.. k! shhh..
DO NOT DISTURB!!

hungry! hungry!

2009-10-30T19:35:00.003+08:00

helo cajun-iansss. lol! im supposed to be busy giving my fullest attention to my project. urrgghh! the mind just cant focus. freaaaking hungry now. every1's out. even the youngest one! lyk wth! kakak kau tk mrayap. kau yg merayap ehhh. tssk! -__-

anw, had a v v v good sleep! my perut 'grrukk x10000' ! mdm morleya's not home yet, doing her overtime. tssk! and ohh! abah cooked for me! cool or wat??! for lyk 19 yrs living in this world, ive never tasted any of his. he just dont deal with the the cooking at home! who else laa kan other than my beloved madam! anw, for that awesome (not so) meal, i shall rate u 8/10! hahah! ok laaa kaan. :) love u bah!

while i was having the meal, the youngest one called and said this..
'kak, wat bus shld i take to go home?'

sumpah! i was thinking she's somewhere out at town. so i was abt to tell her take train instead laaa kan. i said..

'where are u? its alrdy 7!'

the youngest : kat northpoint interchange laa. nak balek nii..

me : laaa.. aku igt kau kat town tadi. naek je ape2 bus. all the 85 sth2... can take.

tsssk! she got home safely in one piece! she told me she was craving for gallilee. and had her late lunch with her fav buddy. waahh!! kecik2 dah pandai merayap. tskk! the next thing u know..

the youngest : kak, wat bus shld i take from here?

me : where r u exactly? its alrdy 3 am!!

the youngest : st james ahh.

-__-

e2 confirm aku direct kau naek bus gi terrusssssssssss kat keje mak bapak kau!! try ahh!

anw cin, u're soo cute! bagos! u're not lyk any1 of us yg suke hangout kat lua buat bende2 yg tk mendatangkan hasil!! syabas! mummy love u gemok! :)

okay. siap! siap! getting ready to go out! lets go hunt for food! meeting abah sooon!!

bye cajun-nianss..

i won laaaa siaaaa hahahaha

2009-10-28T22:48:00.008+08:00

ehh! stop it laa.
ive f**king moved on alrdy laa.
ape kau nak lagi?
B...u ni ehhh.. notty tauu. (urrggh! -__-)
tsssk! isshhh!
nak step attract attention org konon. hahaha!
lets quote ur line.

"..perangai Y.P. siaaakk.."

oppsssie! heh! :)
too bad laaa klau kau terase.
no name mentioned here to avoid humiliation! *__"

Anak Cik Sweet : siaakk ahh. bebual mcm minahrep siaa.
bukan mat tau tapi MINAH...!!

p/s : to u K.A. heheh. sry for rejecting the offer.
looking forward to our next date. weeee!! :)

18chefs

2009-10-28T19:55:00.006+08:00

wo! wo! wo!
had fun fulfilling the stomach today with gurlnextdoor.

while waiting for the food...

nad : ehhh, pinjam hp, nak amek camera!

gurlnextdoor : ehh bodoh siaaak bdak ni! amek GAMBAR laa. bkn amek camera!

nad : ehhh? ape2 ahh. hehehe. eh.eh. kau try smile mcm kwn2 kite. k, 1st kau smile mcm naz, pastu faiza pastu aku!!!

taaaaapi.. gurlnextdoor cume upload gamba trying to smile lyk me!! -__-
ni tgh step ketawe mcm girl ahh.
kan aku kene practice kaaan... :)

sumpah! i look so penyakitan without the make-up on.

ahhh. ppl. rmbr wat to focus ehhh other than the food. :)

k. this one best! i was trying to smile lykk... hehehe. u guess! :)

gurlnextdoor : awwww, OB u look sooo cute!

hahahahaha!!!

yeaaa.. as gurlnextdoor said, hoping to bump into heheheh. no.no.
not lahabao! tsssk! -_____-

sesunggohnye, He is testing us... hehehe.
i looooiiikkee! :)
u made my my heart go dag-dig-dug!

Saat Yang Sungguh Indah

2009-10-25T16:43:00.005+08:00

Especially to those who've been waiting for my updates! haha. surprisingly, abah was the most impatient person! lol. he called me lyk twice to check on me. hahaha!
okay. here how it goes.

i woke up. did some ironing. hung wet clothes. basic spring cleaning (mopping & vacuuming). andddd... i got myself ready. no. no. i didnt put on my outfit that has been chosen by mum yet. only did basic make-up on the face. not too thick. just a dab of foundation and so on.. the clock shown 12.45. and i was all ready with the make-up. was kinda late laaa. was supposed to meet K.A. at 1pm. so i called to confirm our meeting place. no answer. waited... smsed. no reply. called again... no answer.

abah called,, 'ehhh.. tak klua2 lagi?'. i didnt answer and ignored his question. felt kinda disappointed. before i get too emotional, i washed away my make-up and did my zohor prayers. managed to cool myself down. soon after the prayers.. abt a few mins later.. received an sms from K.A.

"Nadia im so sorry.. My atok fell in the bathroom early this morning.
He fell bad and had to bring him to the hospital.
Ive just got back and missed my friend's akad nikah.
My plan 4 the day all ruined. Im really sori 2 hv kept
u waiting. i promise 2 make it up another day.."

and to those who are not aware, K.A. actually asked me out to
his friend's wedding. :)

upon reading the msg, i was lyk omg! he did the iniative to inform me! i mean, if he were to be another guy, who would wanna take all the trouble and clear his mistakes. usually, (based on my experience laaa) that person would only come back lyk 2-3 days later and give all sorts of reasons. in this case, i think, he's quite errr.. reasonable laa. hehe.

again.. abah called, 'how's the wedding?..'

i told him....

he said, 'hahahahaha!! eeee malunye aku! 1st date tak jadi! omg! this is he's 1st lie!! hahahaha!'

i was alrdy mad but then he managed to make me laugh! hahahaha! bapak aku giler ahh! :)

and i said.. 'alaa bah, reasonable pe reason die. shows that he's responsible enuf! not lyk some other guys.. dah tau buat salah, then went missing many many days... came back lyk years later then give all sorts of reasons.. anw, we are only friends. chill ahhh. die cnnt lie u knw. coz he really cares for his atok. let say, if he really lied, then if sth really bad were to happen to his atok, then, die yg menyesal..'

and now, each time i see abah, he would laugh his ass off and tease me.
non-stop teasing till mummy say 'dah laa. bingit laaa.'
-_________-

its the new episode. so wats next? here i am patiently waiting... for now, im fully contented of the way life's supposed to be. thank you Allah.

Ku sujud syukur atas pemberianmu

p/s : and to kau lahabao! hahaha! asl dgn kau?
yerr memang aku dah lame 'mati' utk kau.
aku pon tknk 'hidop' balek klau kene jumpe org mcm kau.
aku dirt?
susah kan kau? tk kan? hahahah!!
skrg, aku dah hidop kat dunie baru. kau...
belah ayam, belah itik, kau belah pon cantik!! :)

byeee!

when i say...

2009-10-24T00:15:00.004+08:00

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
"Laksana kerdil ku memeluk
Lihat aku lebih dalam"

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Tahu engkau besar malu

Tutupi rasa gelisah
Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

K. A. S. J.
:)

Its the IN THING Ppl

2009-10-19T23:52:00.013+08:00

Hey ppl..

Do you fancy those fashionistas wearing acid wash jeans?

Big hair, jelly bracelets, acid washed jeans...ahh the 80s. We prayed some of these trends would die and never come back. But never say never, because acid washed jeans and acid washed tees have returned! The process of acid washing jeans uses chemicals to strip off the color of the top layer,leaving the white fabric exposed. This gives a faded look. Acid washing could be done overall or made to look splotchy. Try a basic faded denim or go bold with color like turquoise or magenta.

Why spend hundred over dollars where you can have your own specially acid washed jeans for just $10!

Not only jeans, we also do acid wash on tee shirts/sweaters for just $5, yes we ain't kidding you!?

Don't know what to do with those red/brown/blue skinnies
(can be norm coloured dark jeans too) you had and never dare to wear it again?

Don't know what to do with those plain old boring tee shirts?

Basic T's (Men)

Skinny Jeans ( Men )

Skinny Jeans ( Women )

Basic T's ( Women )

So what you have to do is just pass us any of your DARK COLOURED tee-shirts/sweaters (brown/dark blue/red or any other) or a any coloured skinnies, we'll add in magic to it!

now, lets see the outcome. :)
take note of the pants ( 1st pic below ) worn by me.
was a norm black skinny initially.
u see. u judge.

So hurry ppl... :)

any enquiries, do give Nurul a call or even sms. (91143220)
even before u call or to leave an sms, do approach me 1st
by leaving a tag @ my taggy.. :)

p/s : ahtin! wawa! syirah! do spread ard yeaa. makminahs too! :)
thks!! love u!!
to hate-taggers, u can come and join in the fun too :)
these things, cnnt be 'hated' one. bcos everybody needs fashion!
i, okay go punyer laaa. :)

Real Love is EXTREMELY Hard To Find

2009-10-17T20:42:00.008+08:00

(Will be taking 10-15 mins of your time.. go on read.
It may be useful for some of u)

Why Real Love is So Hard to Find

Love is not a tangible object, so it isn't something that we can actually grab on to. It is a feeling that occurs when two people believe that they want to be together and share intimacy. This rarely happens instantly, even though individuals may say that they knew they loved each other the minute their eyes met. Real love is something that happens slowly and lasts for a long period of time, perhaps even for life.

Finding a lasting relationship can be difficult, especially if you have an idea of the perfect partner in mind. It will be hard for others to measure up to your ideal, since everyone has faults. Even if you do find someone that measures up to your ideal, your partner may decide that you don't measure up to his or her own. When this happens, the search for the ideal partner begins all over again.

Expectations in Relationships

What are your expectations when you enter into a relationship? Do you approach every relationship as if it were going to last forever, or do you let things develop slowly over time? Rushing into an intimate relationship may scare your partner away, whereas letting your partner get to know you first may lead to a more lasting relationship.

Love Them and Leave Them

Loving and leaving people is never good, especially for the person getting left behind. If you do this frequently, you aren't really ready for a mature loving relationship with anyone. In addition, people may be afraid to form relationships with you if your reputation precedes you.

Fools Rush In

Jumping headlong into any relationship may be considered foolish for several reasons. You may think you love someone immediately, but after a few days of intimacy, the reality of the situation can sink in. You may discover that you really don't know much about the person and that can be frightening. The intensity of a passionate relationship may quickly diminish, leaving you wondering where the love went. Well, real love didn't go anywhere because it wasn't there to begin with. Don't confuse love with lust. Love is caring deeply for someone and wanting to spend time with him or her on a regular basis. Lust seldom lasts for any length of time, and it often leaves people feeling empty and used. People who regularly find themselves in this type of relationship may believe that real love is so hard to find.

Find Compatible Relationships

Finding real love is possible if you take the time to get to know someone. A real lasting relationship can't be formed instantly. Doing things together is a great way to find out if you are compatible with another person. Sharing sports, cooking, watcing movies, strolling by the beach enjoying the nature, squeezing each other's pimple (hahahaha...), or any other activity is one way to get to know another person. Spending quality time with them and talking about their likes and dislikes, can help you discover what you have in common. If you take it slowly, you may find true love in your relationships with other people, the kind of love that will last a lifetime.

well girls, now that u've read. i might need your help. How does it feel lyk of falling in love? yeaa. i knw, by now i shld've alrdy known. but i cant seem to recall. its been sooooo long u see since i last had my very 1st feelings of falling in love..

so... tell me. tell me. :)

heeheeeheeeeheeeehheeee..

This Cant Be True

2009-10-16T23:13:00.004+08:00

Fark! i hate this feelings!
i cant be missing u...
aku ke yg ego?
eh wats got into u nadia?

fark love

2009-10-16T02:15:00.008+08:00

i swear. im starting to hate you! u proved me right! abso-fcuking-ly right!!

and u think i 'd care?
ohh pls! stop wasting my precious time boy!
stop calling/msg-ing me for goodness sake!

is this wat u called love?
am i contradicting myself. urgghh.. idk!

Amused By the News

2009-10-14T20:31:00.031+08:00

Holiday's ending soon. lyk very soon. so far, lotsa things took place. tried to meet as many ppl as i can. tried to compromise as much as i can. despite of all the buzzing. All these keep my legs on the go. tried to find time to have enough sleep. tried to be there for all my important ones as much as possible. Even if i didnt communicate with u, that doesnt mean u r not impt ok. it just mean, u r steady 'bom pit pit'. lol! :)

Makminahs (plus Pakmats) Jalan Raya '09
love u ppl to the max!!
the day was darn awesome! :)

oh! lyk this pic! hehehe.
issya, u're one cute lil girl. XD

1st thing that captured my eye was faiza's rainbow cupboard!
soooo me & naz! :)

Couple A

Couple B

i wasnt aware that we were actually captured! haha! :)
kurang asam kau ain!

nazurah! i'm gonna kill u! :)

Ain's place...
Baek pe... bace suratkhabar terbalek!

otw to Naufal's place.

rajen sunggoh 'anak bujang' ni..

finally! my place!

anw, between u & me 'kosong - kosong'.
kire settle la ehh.
c u in sch!

Mamamia Jalan Raya '09

(again, 1 mising! lyk norm larr kan)
've been missing these girls, it was one happy day thou. :)

the smoky effect tu fahtin nye keje.
(step kat club ahh..)
-___-

i lyk this one below. susah tau nak amek a decent pic wit this minah here.
:)

okay! presenting.. i'm the 'mak-andam' here.
with Mohd 'Syahir' Haizan

The Proposal

Successfully, officially married!

Mohd 'Syahir' Haizan & Siti Salwa Asa'ari
& their anak 'instant' Raiyan Akid. :)

usually, if u dislike the taste of this particular food, u'll go look for a better one..
but not this particular person! hah! yea. love is blind... :)

i swear u r testing my patience.
you! yes you! a guy with no 'kedingdong' :) . tell u wat.. just fcuk off!

you! yes you! cheapo bitch! :)
and lyk finally. i'm convinced! was shocked at first to knw the real u.
but..ahh.. nvm.. managed to cool myself down. no, i'm not sad! maybe happy? hah!
just couldn't stop laughing. amused by the news. anw..

it takes just one night to be lyk u.
but for u to be lyk me, NEVER!!
lucky to be me :)

on another note.. And now, I am so happy with the people around me.
I can so easily block myself from things which are making me upset.

Love love, people.

Dear Life

2009-10-07T20:52:00.012+08:00

On behalf on Ain & Syirah...(since this is Nurul Nadia's Blog...i shall type it out)

"tlg jgn besar2 kan hal like manenyer big f**k okay. its Nadia's blog. She has her say. We're friends. So we have every right to support her even though u're not talking to us."

Finally! I'm back!
Awesome hollyyyy! :)

Whoaa! haven't been posting here for lyk ages. seems lyk there are several stuffs had came upon 'welcoming' me back! Nonetheless I miss fabnuh-roll.bs. For those of you who actually took the trouble to read my BS, thanks alot! It feels really good to actually know there are many many many ppl out there who are reaaaally concern abt my lyfe! thanks again to u ppl! Apparently, I've been doing good. Hella Good! really. I've been indulging myself in some stuffs. Can't express enough how much I love it. :) However, as i was about to start a new chapter of my life, sth reaaaally annoying came upon but I'd have it no other way but to clear this mess up. Well, *hit happens.

before i begin, dengan tak segan silu-nye saye mengisytiharkan, girl u started all this. u are the fire starter. u once said sth lyk this, "..blog all you want. can't be bothered...". and what made my friends became soooo freaking mad at you is due to ur fickle-minded kinda attitude. Despite saying ur say, u are still back here reading my posts. Well, its not that i wanna stop u from reading but then again, u've proved urself wrong. come on, make up ur mind girl. And again, i dont know how many times have i been emphasizing this. this is my blog. My territory. No one can stop me from saying what i wanna say. its not lyk as if i literally spell out your name or even ur beloved's ryte? well, i cant blame those whose been trying all ways to help me out (anw, kate friends kan?) i'm not blaming u either beb. u judge urself lar k. if u still insist that u're not in the wrong, then i've got no say. bingit? marah? 'chillax' k.. continue reading....

1st thing 1st, let me clarify again with u ppl pertaining to my previous post, (oo00oo i love this. this is soooo History & Social Studies! relating back to the source..)

Girl X : ... in a way die sedar diri die. maybe tats y die carik sum1 yg same species dgn die.

so now, wats wrong with my friend saying that? feel offended? well, tat's her way of saying. how can i possibly stop someone from saying things that she wanna say? its not lyk as if she's literally discriminating u ppl. 1stly, no name mentioned. 2ndly, how sure are you she's refering to education? and she didnt even use any form of bad word lyk u used, "...Read the new nwadays,bdk2 yg buat kerja bdh all frm JCs & Polys..." girl, sape tk bingit when u freely say out that statement. susah payah ppl went thru O' lvls, siang malam org blaja, went to Poly, JC and u said, 'bdh'. u even empahasized the word 'all frm JCs & Polys'. i hav friends who's struggling out there to make it thru to this far and u can easily say stuffs that can hurt them. ITE. my friend didnt mention abt u ppl hav stupid brains. so? frankly, when i read ur comment, i laughed. u r one funny girl. really. he made the right choice for choosing u. but i didnt know that ur statement can make my friends go mad. so u see now, ppl went mad for a reason. there's a reason y my friends are 'shooting' at u. not aimlessly my dear. i was shocked myself to see my tagboard being flooded by u ppl punye tags.

girl, u were wondering who the hell are those unknown taggers who didnt put their real name. me too. again, i was shocked myself. suddenly i have so many many many ppl supporting me. i checked the ip add. all diff ppl. weird hah?! i knw who is 'gaijin' but not the rest. wani? eza? sape krg? kite kenal ke? u ppl, can reveal urself maybe thru msn or sms kalau name krg tu confidential sgt. noe wad? i always brangan myself to be ct nurhaliza, having so many fans.. lyk for once, i felt lyk her! hah! lyk wth! back to track.... tapi kan, if they were to reveal their names, u kenal ke? u dont even know me, how can u possibly know those ppl? weird! anw, thks to my supporters! shld open up fabnuh-roll.fc one day! amcm? :)

girl. i dont know u. i cant judge u. all i know is u are definitely faaaaar more better than me. kalau tak sia2 je he choose u. am i right? now, ppl 've been asking whether u're that type of person...ppl kept saying bad things abt u, giving u bad remarks and all. well, i've got no say. u noe wad girl, the way u tagged, has alrdy proved what kinda person u are. true. u dont give a damn. but, u just cant go blaming/accusing ppl for judging u. i'm not asking u to apologise. (memang u dont want pon ..) give urself some time. reflect. is it a right thing to do, intruding ppl's life whose alrdy badly hurt ? u've got what u wanted. i didn't. now, wat else?

wish u all the best in life girl. :)

anyway, here are some ways to release tension! pls dont do this at home k kids!

annnndddd i miss my girls... looking forward to our jln raya outing tomm & luse! :)

c u ppl!

The Abstract

2009-09-28T01:42:00.015+08:00

i dont want to go to ur blog again. i'm sorry. it'll only hurt me. i shall just wait for gurlnextdoor to update me abt u darling. :) and to u, congrats! finally, u've got ur dream motorbike! and ur plate no. urgghhh. hurts me! :(

it feels lyk... mcm baru smlm i had this convo wif mr lahabao. u were there too. we accompanied u to go for ur job interview @ TCC.

me : b, kalau u dah ade motor kan, i tknk ride ahh. i sanggop naek mrt. i tknk kene accident. kalau mati teros takpe. beh, kalau bedridden beh lpas tu cacat for life, how?

mr lahabao : ape sey. i baru igt nak ade scrambler... nak u tompang (and blaa...blaaa...)

me : issshh!! tknk ah. oh! and i nak design kan motor u. yelar, i kan designer kan. i nak letak name i all over ur motorbike! jadi kan, whenever u nak tompangkan minah laen, drg tau yg u dh attached! (i was joking btw)

( u were smiling all the way hearing our convo)

mr lahabao : peh, peh! kau tgk peh! die nak conteng motor aku! tskkk!

anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.............

me : kau nak muke kau jadi smiley face ke flower?
adek : hello kity! -__-
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adek : stitch ahh kak!

our next jln raye outing! we managed to cover quite a number of houses ystrdy. We went to Wak Biah's, Nek Lima's, Nek Dima's, Cik Rasyid's. oh. we even went to KKH! hehehe. Fun! fun! fun!

lyk norm! its lyk a must! b4 step out of the house...

sth kept bothering me.. tsssk!
all started @ Nek Dima's place.
meh, dgr crite akak ni!

Cik M : wah, Abg Jakpa ( Ja'affar) untong laah eh. anak2 smue perempuan.
nanti kahwin smue senang! tunggu duit hantaran jeee

Abah : a'ah. yelar tu! aku ni sbenarnye tgh risau. kau tak tau. anak aku ni (refering to me)
tkde boifren. mcm mane nak kahwen? ntah biler agaknye nak ade boifren...risau btol la. lawa pon tak gune..

Cik S : a'ah lar! anak aku pon takot nak dgn anak kau!

Cik M : ahh.. betol tu. smue org mesti takot! tgk nadia punye cert...ahh.. mcm2...

lyk helo makciks?? diploma i ni blm lagi dlm tangan. Now, will education be an issue here? wat do u ppl think ? so kirekan, maken tinggi aku nak blaja, maken org takot nk dkt dgn aku? well, i think tats a way laidback kinda thinking. but somehow, it maybe true. some ppl made me realised sth.

Girl X : skali eh nad, die tinggal kan kau psl die nak sacrifice his love for you. yelar, mak bapak kau kan nak kau carik sum1 yg berpelajaran. die tu stakat... in a way die sedar diri die. maybe tats y die carik sum1 yg same species dgn die.

me : ntah lar beb. i've got no comment for that. but wait, surprisingly, u're not the only one who said this. kwn kite si gurlnextdoor tu ckp almost the same thing lyk wat u've said.

-______________________-

tapi kan, i dont really think education will be a big issue here! ppl with master degree sumore with P.h.d. pon get married jgak pe.. i always believe in this. Jodoh, Ajal, Maut all are in His hands! and bah, its not that i dont want to get a 'partner'. its just not the right time yet. ppl who volunteerily come and so called 'proposed' me tu memang ade. u know everything. u know who am i contacting with. cume, yarrr, this time round, i shall be choosy. i dont want banana to fruit twice! now, is the time for me to really focus on my studies and to make my dream become reality. well, to further my studies... or to f'ly' after poly life, well, it all depends. i've not fully decide yet. but my heart says...'fly'. unfortunately, my mum changed her mind and wants me to further my studies. i've got my own reasons actually on why i wanna 'fly' after this poly thingy. i just dont knw how to expl to mummy. will she understand my situation? if u're thinking, aku nak 'fly' psl nk kejar glamour, well, No!urrgghh! i've got lyk 2-3 months to decide. the application on applying B.A. in Arts will open once semester starts. haizzz..
Oh..help!

wah! side track habes! hehehe. okay back to raye!

this pic below was taken at Nek Dima's place while all the obeks were busy gossiping..

@ KKH visit Cik Nasy and her new baby!

ohhh! so cute!

mak die lagi cute! hehehe! :)
happy die dapat makan. and i didnt know that confinement food was
quite appetising ehhh. jom same2 beranak ehhh?
-________-

Before we continue our raya expedition, we had our tummy filled with McDonalds Food!

today, we had our 1st open house of the year! many came! even that cute ehem2... hehehe. thanks eh for coming! :) okay. i shall end this post here.freaking tired! my bed is calling me! :)

i cant believe we've been contacting for lyk 4-5 months but not seen each other. hah!

yadda yadda yadda

2009-09-23T22:36:00.006+08:00

Aku pun tahu diri
Engkau mencintainya
Namun mengapa hati
Enggan melupakanmu
Aku tak bisa lari
Dari kenyataan ini
Meski aku miliki
Cinta ku tetap kamu

Aku ingin lari
Aku ingin pergi
Namun hati ini tak bisa pungkiri
Aku ingin kamu
Kamu ingin dia
Cinta ku kandas
Tiada berbalas

Pedih hatiku
Cinta padamu
Tanpa kau tahu

Well, thats a songlyric - 'Aku ingin kamu, kamu ingin Dia' nicely sang by Ashanti. i can say that song really touches me. Really. It somehow says alot about what i'm feeling ryte now. Anyway, on another note. This Sem Break has been a fantastic one for sure! i'm so lovin' it. having a super uber great time rejuvenating the mind. has been coping...errr, quite well lar i can say. and all thanks to those who has been doing their part helping me to stay strong. :) without u ppl, *sigh* mati tergolek kat tepi longkang agaknye. (saje je nak exaggerate!)

For now life is simple, and that's just the way I like it. Just for now. :)
okay. nytes ppl!

salam syawal

2009-09-22T20:31:00.008+08:00

pictures!!

Hari Raya Day 1.

(with some ppl missing)
lambat ahh korang..

the crazy girls!

okay. here comes the maaf-maafan part. :)

with abg Fahmi. - forever lazy

amcm? blh challenge kening? -____-
(no. that's not my bag!)

kakak nak posing, ade je org sebok kat blkg!
:)

Hari Raya Day 2.

we are really crazy!

Selamat Hari Raya Semue! :)

Salam Aidilfitri Al-Mubarak

2009-09-19T11:56:00.015+08:00

A few days back. i cooked this spaghetti for buke specially for the family.
as for the recipe, all thanks to faiza!! :)
sedap tuuu... there's hotdog in it!
even my mak-nenek loves it. (she hates hotdogs actually. so, wat she did was
collect all the hotdogs and pass them to nadra! )
and mind you, she's the best food critic in our family.
when she says its awful, means its really bad! and if she says otherwise, means....
'nadia!! besok kau dah boleh kahwen!!' isssh! no-n0-n0- besok RAYE!!

abah : ya, nanti mlm kite gi mustapha eh ard 3 am gitu
me : wah! best nyerr! set ahh. blh beli chocs!

ouh. just now, we had our sahur meal outside (lyk for the 1st time this yr - finally). Abah's kind enuff to bring nazira and me out to mustapha! hahaha! initially, i thought of buying my essential stuffs lyk make-ups or maybe toiletries. but bah, too late already, i've bought it a few days back! ohh. ohh. i saw hazimira. okay. thats random! :) anw, in the end, we didnt buy that much stuffs. i bought my fav choc (almond roca) for lyk $4.95. nazira bought the smaller one, for lyk $1.95. and abah bought himself almond roca too but the biggest packaging one and a perfume. and noe wad? i hate mustapha this time round coz got lotsa chicopek. u ppl think we are those type of species who roam ard every nite at little india? lyk helo? we are not that cheap okay! yang gatal2 tu abg2 melayu plak tu. geli akak oii... tapi blh tahan handsome ahh. oppssss! -___-

time-checked : 5.01 a.m.

annnndddd. today is 19th... -______- anndddd i'm so so so sad. its been a routine. every eve of raye, we would meet up. usually at night lar after breaking fast. ahhhh.. i hate this feeling. i'm missing that person again. i know i cannot have this feelings. no more! but again, this feelings just came without me inviting it. how can i possibly stop it? and i thought we can celebrate together this yr coz, there wld be no such things as O-lvls to stop us from going out together. :( tsk. i shall hide this sad feelings and not spoil my raya tommorow. i dont wish anyone to notice too esp abah and mummy. okay nadia! u r good at doing this. start ur acting - two faced. and i'm sad too coz currently i'm having my mensus today. tsk. i wanna spend the last ramadhan 'talking' to HIM. (konon nak score points larr) but.. hmmm.. nvm. and, and i'm sad too after reading that post. and i thought all this while.... tsk. nvm.

well, lyk i said, i'm sad. there's this particular person is trying to add salt to the wound...

(",) : u tau anyam ketupat tu dah kire bagos. nanti da kahwen bleh ajar 'anak kite' pulak eh syg? abe dah tue kite ajar cucu lak... (bla-bla-bla)

me : -_________________________________- (speechless)

i've said what i've got to say. its all up to you to accept it boy.

anw... to all, (include those who've hurt me emotionally/physically) Salam Aidilfitri, menyusun 20 jari (include dgn jari2 kaki skali) mohon maaf zahir & batin. sape yg banyak buat dose dgn aku tu, takpe. forgiven! same goes 4 me eh. hopefully, i'm forgiven too. :)

and to you b, happy 19th & slamat hari raye to u too... 469. i'm sorry.

hati ini masih terluka nyaris bernanah.

title-less

2009-09-14T22:38:00.006+08:00

i've been wanting to express these things out..
but didnt get the opportunity to...
who would want to listen anw.
everyone's been busy.
everyone's excited upon celebrating the upcoming Syawal.

well, for me..
as it draws nearer, the more heartbreaking it would be..
ohhh how sucky can this be?
how i wish i'm still a small kid who can still ask
for anything.. everything..

do u noe how much it hurts?
arrrggghh...
i'm sooo freaking jealous with ppl ard me.
i wanna be happy lyk them.
i want. i want. i want!

last day of Ramadhan = 19th of the mth.
how am i supposed to go thru it?
am i strong enuff?
for the past 4-5 yrs..
and this Syawal.. i'll be alone going thru all this?
and again, am i strong enuff?

me : beb, i'll be the saddest person when comes malam raya this yr
faiza : laarrr kau ni... hari raye, org sedih2 psl teringatkan org yg dah meninggal dunie
kau sedih buat ape...? lek ahh nad..
me : yelar.. mlm raye is 'our' 19th.
aku pon sedih lar psl die dah meninggalkan aku..
faiza : ohh.. a'ahh ehh..

tuhan.
tabahkanlah hati ini.
cekalkanlah hati ini.
kuatkan semangatku...

aku wanita biasa

2009-09-12T14:30:00.002+08:00

kadang-kadang aku kuat
kadang-kadang aku rapuh

aku keliru

Great Job Girls

2009-09-11T23:29:00.010+08:00

The new hair-cut!! :)
Just lyk the very old me.

My Sister's (Nadra) Bed! Simple but cute!

The make-over!!
(no. no. the one below is my sis's room. not mine. hehe)

With the help of my beloved Abah!
thank you!! :)

Nazira's Masterpiece

The second living room
a.k.a.
Study room
a.k.a.
Solat Corner

Anak Dara-ss @ work!

Naz!! i made ur nenek's macroni for buke lyk finall-eeeehh..!! :)

one of my fav desserts specially made for me.
By mak-nenek. :)
love u mak!
Kuih Abok2!
actually, its supposed to be wrapped in banana leaves.
but i told mak, 'tkya susah2. letak je kat dulang... blh makan sambel tgk tv..'
aku tau. tak pernah dibuat org!
hehehe

random one

2009-09-10T05:45:00.005+08:00

mummy came back ard 11+ pm ysrtdy nyte due to some shooting range. she was damn f***ing tired i tell u. yet she still did her part by cleaning here & there. (bagos2!!!) then, i was a lil bored coz i was blabbering nonsensical stuffs to my siblings and they didnt want to entertain me. well, tats not norm okay. usually, they would. Really!!! tsk. kenape? tak percaye? dah ahh krg!! anw, since i had nth better to do at that moment, i made my way to the kitchen and decided to hv this jabber convo. here it goes..

me : mummy.mummy.....

mummy : *silence* - busy doing her chores

me : MAK!! (raised my voice a lil higher)

mummy : tsk! apelaaahhh??

me : mak dgr ni....

mummy : *silence*

me : mak??!! (still wants her attention)

mummy : ape die? ckp! ckp! aku kat sini. i'm hearing. aku belom pekak...

me : tskkk mak ni.. kk. Ya ade kwn ni. die lelaki ahh. die cine ahh. die classmate ya.
name die vanberg.

mummy : eh, klau nak crite, straight to the point blh tak?

me : tsk!! *jellllingan manje...* ok2. die pernah tanye ya, 'eh if one day ahh. u come home late ahh. then ur area is quite deserted ahh. then ahh, u kena raped by a grp of banglas. how? abeh kan, i took quite sometime ahh to answer tau mak... MAK!!! dgr tak???

mummy : *giving her 'eh-absurdnye-deyni'* yang kau bodoh jln kat tmpat sunyi apesal?

me : alaaarr. its just a scenario waaaatt... and guess wat? i 4got my answer ahh mak. kalau mak, wat will u answer?

mummy : gave me the *malas-nak-layan-face*

me : mak??? tskkkkkkk... cepat jawab!!

mummy : eh nadia! aku penat larr... jgn tanye mrepek2 blh tak? kau eh, klau dah dtg angin giler-giler kau ehh.. mcm ni larr. me-reeeeeeeeeeeeeee-pek aje tau! ape susah sgt?? kau bukak je larrr slua dalam kau!!! habes cerite!!

me : -_________________-
(kate merepek, tapi jawab jugak. apeeee daaahhh!!)

Fine! takde org layan aku! aku tunggu abah balek. confirm layan aku!

and guess wat?

me : bah...bah... lawa tak gamba ya? cepat bah tgk!!

abah : krrrrokkkkk.....krrokkkk......krrrrokkkk!! (TIDO!!!)

me : tsk.... rrrrggghhhh!!! -_______________-

a little not YET over you

2009-09-09T21:22:00.005+08:00

it s resting time!!!

huh? asking me out for a date? giler kepe budak ni? to (",) ... i'm sry. this is not the time. i'm just not ready. i know and understood ur sincerity. its been years. if u are willing to wait, then u wait. if not then... i dont mind seriously. its not lyk as if i'm desperate in getting a new partner. so far, i'm doing good. ryte girls? i'm coping well. so, yaar. i dont see there's a need for me to rush in finding one. say all u want. i'm just not ready into commiting this time round. with sum1 new sumore. i'm soooo used to the previous one. i just cant see myself with any1 'new'. wait. look. i'm not trying to restrain myself into entering to the world of LOVE again. its just that i dont want to start tearing tommorrow if i were to rush today. get wat i mean? i've learnt my mistake which i'd experience thru my previous rlsp. soo deterred by it. it didnt work out no matter how hard i tried to avert the rlsp from splintering it apart. yarr. it sucks!

anw, as i was saying, this time round, i wanna find the 'true' one. as Abah said, i still hav loooooooooooong way to go. surprisingly, he's aware that currently i'm contacting with these fell-asssess. hah! he doesn't want me to quit searching for the ryte one. he even saw the msg which was actually meant for me! sooo malu!! on the other hand, mummy said, "ahh abah kau ni memang kemarok. kau jgn layan abah kau ni. now, u focus more on ur studies first. that's more important...matair-matair ni nanti blh crite..." alaaar. aku ni asek side track jekk. anw, bertitik tolak dgn perbincangan tadi, i dont want history to repeat itself. deterred! deterred! nuff is nuff! :) i wanna have a full control of myself this time round. i agreed with my gurlnextdoor. she said sth lyk this, my feelings come 1st... then others. no. aint being selfish here. i had enuff of getting hurt. try be in my or maybe gurlnextdoor's shoe. u'll know how's it feel lyk. (i bad u dont wish to be in our shoes. dah lar krg takkan fit punye. kite nye size, size mat salleh! only available in M&S. k lame. cepat! go touch wood or wateever related to kayu. NOW! i said! tsk?!)

had this convo .
***nur*** : this is my new no ....... - ***nur***
me : u punye name ade 'NUR'. okay! cool!
(hahahaha! sounds more lyk a girl's name!)
***nur*** : shhhh....hahahaha

thats funny! :)

Yang dicinta akan pergi
Yang didamba akan hilang
Hidup akan terus berjalan
Meski penuh dengan tangisan

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali
Hapus semua pedih

Andai mungkin aku bisa
Kembali tulus segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa
Meski derai air mata

each time i think of you, i'll always remeber wat cek enab said... :)

Busy-Busy-BUSY

2009-09-07T20:00:00.006+08:00

wanna see more?
do come to my house for Raya! :)

Nurul Nadia Bte Ja'affar is v. v. v. busy at the moment.
Busy painting her room!
ooh..ohh..many many many pics to be uploaded!
Soooooonnnnnnnnnnn!!

Nenek Naz's spagh - to try out sooooonnn...
tsk, soon i said! -______-

2009-09-05T23:07:00.003+08:00

Terima kaseh Nurul 'Ain anak Pak Sumeri!!!

from the Nuh-rolls.

dari jauh kupohon maaf

2009-09-04T17:23:00.003+08:00

ku tersentak.
ku tersenyum sejenak.

..ku mengerti maksudmu. maaf. ku tak bisa..

true. sometimes, we are unaware that we are blessed with something that we ourselves wouldnt expect it would happen. sometimes, fantasy can become reality too. and i thought it would only happen in movies. see how great the Almighty is. Alhamdullilah. maybe, this is what they say, 'Berkat Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak'.

it has been quite some time. ever since we were back in 'hop-scotch' days. and i wonder, why me? anw, i'm sry if i did hurt u. didnt mean to. guess, i'm just not ready. its still bleeding here. wait till it leaves a scar. but still, i cant guarantee u. well, personally, i'm happy now that we are friends. and i really hope u cld understand my situation. i'm still having this sucky feelings in me. yaar. i know he's loooong gone...but... tskk. entah ahh. time...hah! yes.. time!

(",) : i want to send u a song, 'Suara' by Hijau Daun. Go listen. I like the song.
me : ohh. okay. lagu tu psl ape?
(",) : u free skrg?
me : y?
(",) : gi google ahh carik lyrics! hahahah
me : alaahh.. malas ahh.
(",) : hahaha. ok2. its abt a guy who has been waiting for this girl for so long. sampai skrg..
me : (alaaarmak deyni, nak sindir2 larr pulakk) ohh.. really. okay. i'll listen

yadda..yadda..yadda..

(",) : rindu ehh?
me : tadi buke ape?
(",) : tukar topic.... -___________-

i'm sorry...(",)

iftar ramadhan

2009-09-02T00:28:00.008+08:00

Ramadhan has been fantastic!

iftar with the MakMinahssss @ Bazaar Geylang.
(ashraf and gf not in the pic)
met nick, my uncle, kak syikin annnnnddd shafarul laaarr. :)

iftar with the Mamamias (3 M.I.A.)
@ Arab St.

I still need to find inspiration or motivation to keep loving what I do cos it's getting pretty tiring. One thing for sure, I have such fun besties ard such as mamamiasss & makminahs! thks guys. Didn't think I was special enough, yada yada yada. But yeah, it was awesome. I kept smiling the whole day whenever u ppl are ard. lyk sum1 ever said, 'babe, i hope things would be great for u this Ramadhan. Slowly but surely u would recover form the past from the way i see it u got the bestest bunch of gfs. May Allah bless those who would hold ur hand and lead u through this bumpy road and may he lead and show the light to the ones who put u in this road...' all i could say...Insya Allah & Alhamdullilah coz i hv such amazing ppl ard me. and to u, thks boy. (:

Ain & Syirah smiling wiiiidddddddelyyyyy. XD

this pic above really tells how contented these 2 ladies are now. i'm happy for them. finally, they've found their love ones back. congrats to apeh for winning this girl's heart back though technically, not yet. to syirah. do take all the time in the world. just dont rush. to ain, well, before u know it, everything's back to norm. anytime soon beb. lyk naz said, 'chill-lax' :) Now that 2 hati sudah bertemu kembali setelah sekian lama terpisah... all, i can do as a friend is to give all my support. as for me, my time will come... maybe not now.. maybe later.. i dont know. i shall leave everything to Him. :)

ouh. as recommended by a friend of mine, Faiza.
i watched 'Syurga Cinta' @ Youtube.
i loooooooooooovvvvvveee the movie.
i shall give 10.5/10 rating! :)

and i learnt sth 4rm this movie. The heroine said, kadang2 Allah sembunyikan matahari, Dia datangkan petir & kilat. Lepas tu, kite akan tercari-cari ke mane hilangnye matahari. Tapi, sebenarnye, kite tak sedar, Allah dah mendatangkan kite pelangi. Get it? No. u dont. Nvm. let me exp. Dalam hidop, kite haruslah bersyukur dan terime ape adenye. InsyaAllah, sesuatu yang lebih baik (sesuatu yg di luar jangkaan) akan menanti kite di suatu hari kelak.

ade lagi tau.. Jadilah permate yang sangat berharge. Sesungguhnye, hanye org yg tertentu sahaje yg layak memiliki kite.

annddd... jike hati seseorang itu dilukai, bersedihlah. Perasaan sedih tu memang ade tapi jgn lah terlalu bersedih. Sesungguhnye, kite harus terime & redha dgn ketentuannye.

Walau aku senyum bukan bererti aku selalu bahagia dalam hari
Ada yang tak ada di hati ini..di jiwa ini..
Menikam sanubari ini..
Ada saja cubaan hidup
Seakan aku hina
Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terangMu
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halalMu

469 B

2009-08-29T14:25:00.001+08:00

projects!!

2009-08-29T14:11:00.003+08:00

Abah 'accompanied' me through out the nyte. :)

sorry for the late updates!!
was v.v.v. busy.
will be update more. :)

'iftar' at Pizza Hut

2009-08-29T13:58:00.006+08:00

while waiting....

and waiting....

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd waitinggggggggg....

stomach says....'gruukk-gruukk-grrrrkk..'

Finally!!!

Naz Bdae Was Awesome

2009-08-29T13:09:00.011+08:00

Nazurah Rahmat's 19th Burfday! sry for the late post. was caught up with 'tak-tau-biler-nak-habes' projectssss. well, now that they are all submitted and presented, i'm freeeeeeeeeeee!! hehehe. So, now all of the Makminah's dah 19 ahh. hahaha. dah tue smuenyeee.. :)

ohh.ohh.. we got our $400 reward!!~~~ weee~~~ :)

Surprise!!

-______________-

more pics here

kenduri at Mak's place

2009-08-29T12:47:00.004+08:00

This was waaaay before puasa. We had amini feast (kenduri). So called welcoming the holy month of Ramadhan, Doa selamat for mak's recovery, Doa selamat for cik Nasy and our upcoming new family member. ohh...soo cant wait. and also, Doa selamat for cik Jaz as he's flying off soon to Brunei. May Allah give his blessings to all of us. Amin. :)

naz bdae secret outing!!

2009-08-27T09:20:00.004+08:00

Girls !!! pics updated! sile amek yerrr.. jgn malu2!!

me & Bunga :)

Happy Fasting everyone

2009-08-21T20:58:00.010+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of Ramadhan whereby all Muslims will have to fast. well, not for those in 'Arafah. they officially starts today.

Tomorrow will be the start Ramadhan whereby all Muslims will be rushing for Terawih prayers.(errr not exactly. officially starts today. hehehe)

Tomorrow will be the start of Ramadhan whereby all Muslims(mostly) will be busy 'tawaf-ing' @ Geylang instead of the holy Ka'abah. :)

Tomorrow will be the start Ramadhan whereby Muslim boys(not all. maybe.) will be telling their parents that they are going for Terawih prayers but ended up in Masjid Al-Bawah-Blok or Al-Padang-Bola.

Tomorrow will be the start of Ramadhan whereby Muslims will be busy queu-ing up for free porridge. :) - (freee perrr...)

Tomorrow will be the start of Ramadhan for NURUL NADIA BTE JA'AFFAR, becoming the BUSIEST person in the whole wide world as she will be busy preparing for buka & sahur @ the same time handle with her project that is yet to be done! :)

annnnnndddd.

no longer hearing '....buke ape....? me? bookertyyyyyyy !!...' :)
no longer be receiving wake up call for sahur.
no buka-ing together.
no bazaar geylang outing.
annnnnddddd it goes on and on and onnnn...
bla-bla-bla-bla..

well, despite all that. i am still loking forward for this holy month of Ramadhan. Alhamdullilah. Syukur. once again, i'm given a chance to celebrate this month again. i'll take this opportunity to wish alllll Muslims... Happy Fasting!! :)

"......ayohhh! puase yok-yok. besok pagi bukak periok....." - abg fadhli (dah lameee line tuuu..)

annnnnndddd

Tomorrow will be a very very very busy day for me!!! i still have setting out plan, profile section, details, spec doc. urrgghhh!! all the best ahhh nad! -__________-

*i have my own reason for not proceeding the matter to the authorities. :)

bla-bla-bla

2009-08-20T13:09:00.002+08:00

Late for class again!!
having my lunh now with acin! :)
mum cooked sotong today!

and i'm still struggling with my drainage plan!!
-_____________-

okay. off to school.... (soon)

'Title-less'

2009-08-19T11:36:00.003+08:00

Busy.

Project-ing.

Submission next Monday!

Best of luck ppl!

penjelasan tidak kesampaian

penantian bak siksaan

hidupku puas kau hancurkan

cinta suci kita sanggup kau keruhkan

namun tetap ku teruskan

kenangan dulu terpaksa ku tinggalkan

*yup. i'm letting it go... slowly

WTF

2009-08-16T14:27:00.006+08:00

am currently doing my drainage plan!
Fark!! i see 'VEG' lines everywhere! wats happening maaannn?!
still stucked with the water runoff!
urrggghh!

ohh. had a great time ystrdy.
spent with FAME!
ooo0oo0o... i smell $$$$!! hehehe.
food @ Hortpark was damn awesome! (mcm kat hotel u!!)

then, head down to vivo.
annnnnnnnnnnnndddddddd.... i love New Urban Male @ vivo!!
goodness! i hv crush on this guy working there! (cair meleleh akak oiii... hahaha)
akak nampak budak tu senyom kat akak larrrr!!
hahaha
ohhh, i didnt smile back!
step nak control jambu larrr katekan! hahahaha. (padehal..padehal..)
yadda..yadda...yadda..
we had sushi!! :) sedap!

nxt, orchard!
naz didnt tag along.
left with me and faiza!
walked...and walked... and walked...
we met ash and his gf outside 'Puncak'! yup! she's friendly! :)
continued walking....
annnnd finally!
rest our asses @ Resto Surabaya!
meal was super duper awesome!!
fulled!
continued walking..
annnd we met farhan (ex.....) @ the same place we met ash & gf!
i didnt notice him intially.
aku ni memang bute.
(kene pkai spects tapi... ahhhh... biaselaar kan,,
akak nak control jambu!! hahaha)
sooo, he called my name!
oh gawd! (the 1st thing came into my mind,
'OMG! not bad jugak kau ehh!' hahahaha!)
faiza said he's hot!! :)

annnnd walked...
guess wat??
we saw bapak batam!!
fark kan!! suay saaakkk!! aiyohhh!!
the 'fark-iest' part, his gf was staring at me intently!!
lyk wtf!!
lyk helo girl, ur bf doesn't fit my bill lyk totaaally!!
tk kuase akak nk lyan.
eeeee....!!!!
suay betol ahhhh!!

okay!! back to auto-cadding..
pics will be uploaded soon!! :)

will be attending mak's kenduri @ serangoon this evening.
cant wait!! i want food! hahaha! :)

*Shafarul = nice name*
is the person is as nice as the name? idk.

lalalalalalala

2009-08-14T12:32:00.009+08:00

" Sometimes, strangers can..........
BUT...
he/she can also...
an intruder?
well, i dont know. "

i know u will be reading this

look, u dont hv to feel threatened or what. i've said this before in my previous post. not before this but waaaay before this. i'm just expressing out my feelings here. and i dont think its wrong. seriously. this blog is just between me, myself and i. yes! it can be viewed by public. so? why do i have to care abt wat u ppl wanna say? its my territory anw. wat has all this got to do with you? its not lyk i'm destroying ur life. to make it simple, its not lyk as if i literally go running back, begging him to come back to me. yes! i still love him but i damn farking knw that he's already attached to many many many girls. and i dont wish to become 1 of them. one of the reasons wld be, he might be mistaken by calling me eton instead of nadia, marpo'ah instead of nadia, bedah instead of nadia, fiqah instead of nadia... so yarrr. no way! as i was saying, if he truly, madly, deeply, loves you, cares 4 you....he wont be coming back to me girl! no matter how mushy my posts can be for him! never! u're sweet. u're pretty. so, y worry? dont feel threatened. i'm just another party here. and i dont wish to get involve in anyway for godsake! no way! i knw hws it feel lyk being in ur situation. i've been in ur situation many many MANY times when i was with him. (and when i said many means its farking ALOT okay. i'm not bullshitting here. no time 4 all that) ohh. not only there's 3rd party. there's 4th.. there's 5th.. maybe 6th annnnddd so on.. i dont know. so yarr. have faith in urself girl!

and to that mother-farker, if u have problem with me, u can dont farkingly break my mum's flower pot! kakak landscape marah ni!!! be a man/woman enuff to confront me. dont get my family members involved.

okay! back to project now! cant wait 4 tomm. will be receiving the prize! its 2k mind u!! :) to FAME, congrats! to naz, a v v v big congrats to u for the design of the butterfly garden!

and to you.
Happy 19th Birthday Nizzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam!!! :)

Coz of YOU

2009-08-13T14:44:00.006+08:00

Its hard believe. But its the reality.
Fark. How could this happen to me?
Fark. How can i fall you?
and u call this love?
Fark. i saw myself keep running back to you!

No boy. No boy. Nooo.
Stop playing games with me.

You woke up in a stranger's house.
Spending those sweet lil moments.
Who's that person beside u boy..
on the same bed but in the diff world?

No boy. No boy. Nooo.
Stop playing games with me.

U left me stranded. Alone...
No more saying 'Baby, i love you'.
Oh mine. Ohhh.

Baby i hate you.

You do wat u wanna do. i'm just sitting here watching over you.
I'm doing wat i'm feeling fine.

"...i love u in the moring..

i love u in the evening..

i love u in the afternoon..

~lalalalala~..."

Those were the days

2009-08-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

i was 'cleaning up' the mess in my thumdrive. and i found this! hahaha!
My Secondary School days back in Orchid Park Secondary School.
(zaman kental habeees..) kekek..kekek..huahahahahaha!!!!

Konon2 ni due eko ni mane pey hot couple ahhh kat opss dulu.
tapi tu dulu. hahaha! kental habes!! :)
kecik2 dah gatal. sampai buat 'record' kat skola!
astaghfirullah....

ni jiwe NPCC rabak punye!! this was taken during NPCC Day back in
Police Academy. (kencang seyy... weeewit! hahaha)
tu time, aku mcm skeleton ahh.
still sec 2 btw.
skrg, babat here & there! aiyohhyoohh akkaaa..

Jiwe NPCC habes! amek neoprint kene same2!!
ni larr minah2.
giler2 pon, aku rase, tu time aku garang nak mampos biler jadi NCO.
hahahah kesian cadets2 tu smue!

ahhh.. kan aku dah ckp! kite smue giler neoprints! :)

laggiiiii...

hahahah... i think this is funny tapi sweet!! hahahahah!! :)

lpas je npcc training, tron np amek neoprints. mcm mane duit tk habes!!

ni time sec 3. (flag day) cekgu sroh collect donation tapi tgk ape kite buat!
setan btol!!! hahaha!!!

Graduation Day.
waahhh ni zaman kakak2 ahhh.
they call it, 'dah rilek ahh'.

dulu ramai kate muke kite same.
konon jodoh blh panjang ahh..
hmm. tak poonn...
ape je..

ni mamamia punye asst 'Chong'.
lyk ain said, BFF dgn Ms Soo.
sape nak carik psl dgn mamamia,
jumpe ni hot mama dulu!
sape mau brani dgn ini minah?
hahahaha!
tgk kening org da takot.
aku slalu kacau die, 'wa, mcm tats-my-macdonalds'!
hahahaha
kental sakkk!!

Ni Career Day.
lawa kan minah2 ni... hahahaha!
smue smangat kebabian bgn pagi2 bute...
sempat make-up smue! hahaha!
aku brangan larr kan nak jadi Architect!
ahh. amek kau... btol2 aku kat dlm line ni..
and guess wad?
hahahhaha
i won the best dress up(girl).
for guy plak, klau tk salah, adly.
tak! aku tk amek gamba dgn die.

ni time bulan puase. kite ramai2 buke same2.
kecoh rabak.
ade org tu kan, tipu daddy die..
mcm2 ahhh die crite.
beh daddy die kol2 nizzam.
nizzam plak step 'wrong no'..
kekek..kekek... :)

ni prom nite!
yg tk gerek, mamamia tk tron!
farah ajeee yg tron.
but still, had fun! :)

dlam crite2 org puteh, klau prom nite, its a must for couples to exchange gifts.
this is what i got!
konon2 mcm romantic g2 ahh.. hahahahah!!! :)

tu laaarrrr zaman kekentalan aku. hahahaha!!zaman name minah2 tgh hot!and we were one of them! hahaha! rmbr abt the stealing case ppl? hahahah. yg aku heran tu, byk2 name kite, name aku ms soo annouced! ccb btol! hahahah! konon time tu, mcm angkat fame ahhh biler kene diri dpan skola! tapi dlm hati aku, tuhan je yg tau... aku sumpah, taubat saaakk...hahahha!! :)

Mamamia Gathering

2009-08-12T20:43:00.009+08:00

MAMAMIA gathering! pics uploaded!! hahahahah!! :)

ni minah kan, suke buat muke mcm ni. idk y...

aku dah ckp...

*speechless*

alamak. ni Letcmi apesal plak termenong??

'Eh suke2 per amek gamba org?? akak tak suke tau'

ni due minah. lambat gilerr!
beh, dtg step mane pey hot superstar ahhh..
Satu aci bollywood. lagi satu minah jepon yg bwk watak 'Geisha'!! amcm? hahaha

annnndd.. we cam-whored lyk crazy!!

'surprised' me with bdae cake!hahahha!
surprise habesss! :)

kakak2 hot OPSS! amcm?? hahahah!

minah2 tepi jln.
1 malam $500!!
amcm?
aku tk msok campo! psl aku mak ayam! :)

yg ni nenek jual keropok! modern nye.
amcm? nak beli cu??
keropok corntos ahhh..
ade cheese lagi..
meh ahhh beli!

mcm pham. tknk konon.

say no to keropok.
say yes to rokok!!
amcm? rhyme tak??
hahaha!!

The single Ladies in MAMAMIA!!
sile lahhh pilih... jgn segan2.. :)

ni, seniors of MAMAMIA!! kite larr start dulu zaman minah kental. actually ade lagi satu ahh. tapi die tk turned up.
hahahaha. maybe nxt time eh farah! :)

dlm toilet pon nak pose! smue punye 'ke-minah-an' sunggoh terserlah.
memang ade tokoh!! hahahah!! :)
p/s: syirah. stop it sak lidah! hahahaha!

beh, wawa nk step merajok ahhh...

okay! done! watever it is, zaman hardcore minah kite dah habes. smue dah besar2 skrg. satu2 punye t*t*k pon dah mcm mak org except for one ahh.. kesian, maseh jempot2! hahaha! sry beb! :)

Nadra's Khataman Al Quran & Abg Meme's wedding

2009-08-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

YES!! YES!! many many many posts today!! hahahaha!

Nadra, u did a great job!! Congrats! lyk finally done with 30 juzuk Al-Quran. i'm so proud of u girl. Bile nak jadi Al-Hafiz? hahaha. i rmbred when i was 12. i finished reading Al Quran too. i knw hw's it lyk to read in frt of many...many..many.... eyes! hahaha! Best! Best! :)

Last Sun, went to JB.
Abg Meme's Wedd!
food was superb!
i love Boyanese Food! :)

Jgn piker mcm2. kat atas tu, due2 adek sdare aku! :)
Family photo is a must!!

nuff cam-whoring. ppl bz entertaining guests.
i was bz sleeping in the car! :)

( click here for more pics )

this one. super belated one.
overdue pics of MAKminahs.. (my babies)
love u girls.
ahh ni... name je 'minah'.
tapi sumpah. we are not one!
kite decent nonsense punye!
sumpah. aku dah taubat! :)

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Random Post Early In The Morn

2009-08-11T05:45:00.005+08:00

to whoever yg terase (sape mkn babi, die yg berdose)

look. wats the problem with the way i style up my tudong? does that bother u? or are just jealous coz u cant master the skill of wearing 'tudong' lyk mine? hah! its too bare? so? r u going to handle my sins? who are u in the first place? i said b4. Ikea is having sale. In fact Courts is also having mega raya sale! go n get urself a mirror n cermin tu diri sendiri dulu. u urself, not having ur hair covered, exposing here and there, ade hati nak ckp psl org. ckp blkg2 plak tu. wat is this? *huge big BIG sigh* still behaving lyk a kid. i mean, its not that i dont gossips but i do hav my limits and i dont hurt ppl lyk some ppl do.

and to u, u hate me? fark ahh. i dont give a damn lar kid. aku tau, aku takde hal dgn kau. last time, back in sec sch pon, i dont rmbr us having a fight? in fact, whenever i see u outside, i wld always give u my precious smile. (i dont usually smile at ppl fyi) and my sis wld ask, 'kak, sape tu? kwn kakak?' and i'll ans, ' ahhh, yaar. schmate'. i understand, kau baru nak pham meaning of life. dont worry, no grudges! aku bukan mcm kwn2 kau kat lua tu. 4 now, do wat u wanna do. i wont b lyk some ppl out there, tak puas hati je, nak kene jumpe! DIE2 must meet up. beh, tron kene bwk satu clan. payong, jgn lupe! fark! crap seyy. zaman tu smue, utk aku dah bes! am focusing more on my studies. pelan2 ahhh kau kayoh. pfffffttt.....

Random Convo

nad: aku tak suke gi tempat ni. reminds me of... haizzz.. aiyoh.. this is the place i used to lepak with ...

'a' : y of all places here?

nad: ohh. that time, yishun lib blm siap lagi kat np. lagi pon, kite suke mkn gallilei. soo yaar.

'b': ohh. yaar. i rmbred. i saw u here waiting for... outside charles N keith.

nad: ahhh. btol tu. harap2. tk jumpe sape2 yg tk spatotnye dijumpe ah kat sini.

'c' : sape nad?

nad: ohh. dgr2 bdak tu tinggal sini. ntah larr. dgr2 je. info aku yg blg.

'd': ahh. memang btol.

nad: ohh. k.

latest update!!!

'a' : nad!! die ................................ tau!!!

'c' : ahhhh? really? drg matair ke?

nad: ntah ehh. 'x' ckp thats not the one yg die nampak. 'x' nampak drg holding hands kat lua train. she look funk-ier than this. its a diff person.

'a' : must 1 of be his scandals ahh.

nad: ntah larr.

'b' : so wat now?

nad: krg tunggu je larr. kad jempotan cukor rambot anak drg.

'a' , 'b' & 'c': hahahahah!!

'c': kau ok nad?

nad: okay. orayte.

'b': so ape kau nak buat?

nad: errr.. kat khatib ni kan, building ape paleng tinggi??

'c': kau jgn giler nad!

'b': mengucap nad! g amek wudhu'. solat.

nad: hahahah!! btol ckp kau kau. hahaha!! :)

i shall conclude. >>> kesian bdak tu. die tk bersalah... tsk.tsk.

soon ppl

2009-08-10T20:37:00.003+08:00

To those ppl yg sentiase eager nk bace post aku ni. hahaha. sry ahh. been very very busy these days. more updates & pictures will be coming up. u wait huh! hehehehe. :) to those yg suke hate-tag aku ni, hahahaha, teroskan la ehh. tapi igt, puase nk dkt, cpat2 lar bertaubat. mcm rhyme ehh.. hahaha. i lyk! :)

okay. nytes ppl! wait for my next updates! soon ppl. soon. dont miss me too much ehh. hahaha! :)

*faht & wawa, thks 4 ur concern girls.

Super Duper Great

2009-08-08T23:16:00.005+08:00

Sumpah aku blm mandi. i threw my bag on my bed, on my lappy and start blogging! hahahah!
Today's gathering was awesome! gerek giler babz punyer. thks 4 the reunion girls. u girls rawk! oh.oh.oh. the bdae 'surprise' was sooo 'unexpected'!! hahahaha. all thks to our hot mama! :) i totally miss u ppl lyk alot alot! hah! 'Beach-partying' with u ppl were damn fun laar! kite nye suare mcm satu ECP tu kite punyer. same goes for the bus & mrt! hahahah! all the way, suare kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite ajee!! hahahahah!! Cam-whored lyk crazy! hahaha. Gossips & gossips annnnnndddd more GOSSIPS... 4rm nenek jual kropok to 'ape-brand-coli-kau-pkai'?!! HAHAHAHAHAH. crazy bunch of minahs!! hahaha!

ohhh. learnt sth new abt perception 2wards guys! hah! :) annnddd.. pics to be uploaded soon!

oh.oh.oh. dont 4get nxt outing ehh. this time round, will farahzyan syazwani be joining us? mari sama2 kita tunggu dan lihat... :)

again... thks ppl 4 this reunion. as i said, initially, i dragged myself all the way to ECP. But @ the end of the day, everything changed! u ppl rawk!!! :) i want more of this ehhh ppl! love u girls!

Suddenly i realised, there are more ppl out there who really cares for me. :)

2nd post of the day.

2009-08-05T18:18:00.004+08:00

1st of all. id lyk to apologise to ain 4. sry beb. gua balek dulu. gua penat lar . hari ni otak dan seluruh anggota badan gua rase mendak semcm. perot plak 'grukk..grukkk..' tekak rase mcm nk mkn ayam rendang!! and guess wad? gua balek rumah bukak periok, TADAAAHHH! ayam rendang! *hari raya...lalalala...* mummy gua mcm pham ahh beb. mcm kwn gua ckp, 'telepathy' ahh beb! :)

anw. apart 4rm all that. hahahahah!! i just cant stop laughing 4rm just now, since i read my taggy. kelakar rabak punyerr! kwn2 sile lar bace. wooohhooo! i was laughing rabak2 u noe! XD kk. back to track. hahahaha!

khas utk picaso dan ustat habibi. Sesungguhnye, saye tidak men-'cover' bontot. saye rase anda tersalah tafsir dan kurang mengerti akan definisi 'cover' bontot. saye sedar akan perbuatan saye. Maaf pon telah dipinte. itu terpulang kpade pihak2 samade mereke mahu terime atau tidak. ohh ye ustat.

Saye sunggoh terpranjat kerane ustat maseh sudi utk dtg menziarahi lelaman saye. issshh. jgn ustat. bahaye tu. dose tau jike ustat asek lihat ke lelaman ini. bukankah lelaman ini ade mengandungi unsur2 maksiat yg tidak begitu disenangi oleh ustat? Subhanallah.

Bagaimana saye boleh begitu pasti tentang org yg 'hate-tagging' saye? tidak kah anda pernah terdengar tentang I.P. address? saye sudah meniliti satu persatu. memang sah. dan saye tahu siape kah anda sebenar-benarnye. takpelah. saye tidak menghalang anda utk terus memper-'full'-kan tagboard saye. ia sunggoh fun, hip & happening lah ustat. syabas! teruskan! ohh. sudah jelas juge terbukti, org yg mengenali diri saye ni, tk meluat & menyampah dgn saye. jike saye tiade, tiade fun tau ustat. saye ni tk lah begitu 'fofular'. alaaar setakat satu SP saje yg kenal. Blm lagi satu S'pore. (: mungken, akan datang. InsyaAllah.

dan isu mengenai kening saye. ohhh well, i'll take that as a compliment. terpulanglah pade ustat utk menilai-nye. penjelasan sudah pon diberi.

other than that, aminah rocker pulak. alaaahai... dulu nenek keropok. skrg aminah rocker pelihare toyol plak tu. ape ni...? aku ni dah lah 'segan-silu' org nye. aiyohhh. and btw, how the hell u knw abt ust=picaso=H**** ?? weird ehh. mcm pham jerr. sesunggohnye, saye sorang aje yg tau. hehehehehe. (:

anddd. 'kawan eya'. awak sape ehh? naz? faiza? ain? syirah? wawa? faht? afiq? farhan? azlan? zul? khai? mamat? abu? ashraf? sape ehhh..? haizzz.... pelik...pelik...

tampines poly. got such sch one ahh? hahaha. buat sendiri pe? hahaha. (:

ust mazlina. OMG! sounds lyk my ust. Dont tell me she is really my ust. oh no! u've been reading my posts? but kan... cnnt be lehh.. hw u get my blog url? must b some ppl who randomly put their name as urs lar kaaan.

BFF eya & H****. sape pulak ni...? confirm ex opss. confirm cum chop punyer!

so how ppl? kelakar kan org2 ni smue? HAHAHAHAHAH!!! okay. nuff 4 now. i must get my ass down now and continue reading my book! keep in touch ehh ppl!

thks to all of u taggers... u've cheered me day by day. :)

pahala atau dosa

2009-08-05T08:24:00.007+08:00

ohhh.well. i'm glad. i have stalkers out there who's been following my updates! OMG! i've never imagined that i can be that popular ehhh. ohh. wait. still wondering here. i wonder how ppl get my blog url. hmm. as far as i'm concerned, no one links me. even the one closest to me. weird! must be some ppl yg maseh ade issue dgn aku larr tuu.. alaaar. step aku tak tau plak kaann. i'm not that stupid though..

bertitik tolak dgn ape yg telah dikatekan oleh ust habibi dan picaso. saye bersyukur kerane maseh ade org yg ingin berperihatin, bersusah payah, berpenat-lelah dan bersengkang mate demi memperbetulkan keadaan saye. Alhamdullilah. Syukur nikmat ke hadratmu! :) Islam memang menggalakkan umatnye memperingati antare satu same laen jike ade terbuat silap dan itu sememangnye wajar. InsyaAllah. semoge dengan perbuatan anda sekalian akan mendatangkan pahala. terime kaseh atas keperihatinanmu sekalian. terime kaseh juge atas pujian kamu mengenai kening saye. Sesungguhnye ini adalah ciptaan-Nya dan sesungguhnye ini adelah tulen dan dijamin halal! :) Seperti yg anda tahu. apakah hukum mencukur kening? haram! betul. bagus sekali.

Berbalek semule dgn topik yg telah dibentangkan. saye, nurul nadia bte ja'affar ingin memberi sedikit penulasan di sini. Maaf dipinte, jike perbuatan saye, dengan tidak berpakaian sopan amat mengganggu ketenteraman anda sekalian juge akan mendatangkan dose juge pade sesiape yg melihatnye. (utk sesiape yg menganggapnye agak menggiurkan) saye sedar atas ape yg telah saye lakukan. ohh. jgn lah anda risau. perbuatan saye telah pon diketahui oleh org tue saye. Sejauh ini, mereke tidak pon memberi komen yg tidak memberangsangkan. :) Sejauh ini juge, tiade sesiape yg pernah memberi komen mengenai gaya fesyen yg sedang saye padankan. terime kaseh atas keberanian anda kerane telah memberi komen. Yang penting, ianya tidak lah keterlaluan jike ingin dibandingkan dgn sesetengah pihak di luar sane yg sengaje ingin menampakkan 'breast alley' atau sengaje ingin menampakkan 'butt crack'-nye. Maaf sekali lagi. ini hanya 'random' semate-mate. tidak ade kene mengene dgn yg hidop mahupon yg mati. bagi sesiape yg terase tu, oppsss sry then. :)

namun demikian, ingin saye tekankan di sini bahawa nilai, budi pekerti seseorang itu tidak lah terletak pade pakaiannye. Ia ternyate dan jelas telah dibuktikan di dalam hadis bahawa nilai budi pekerti seseorang itu terletak pade hatinye. pernahkah anda mendengar, 'dont judge a book by its cover' ? tentu sekali bukan? bagus sekali. namun, jika anda hanya dapat menilai seseorang hanya dgn pandangan pertame sahaje, bukankah itu akan mendatangkan dosa? saye bukan lah sesiape utk menilainye. hanye seorang insan yg tersgt kerdil. saye akui. Dia yg menentukan.

Dan seterusnya, seperti yg telah diketengahkan sebentar tadi, saya maseh berasa pelik kerana tidak ramai yg tahu kewujudan blog saye. hanye kenalan yg rapat dan sahabat handai yg terdekat. Namun demikian, tidak seorang pun meng-link saye. bloghopped? tidak. tidak mungkin. ia adelah kerane, tidak seorang pun meng-link saye. bagaimane utk bloghop ke blog saye? baeklah. mungken itu bukan lah isu yg blh dianggap besar di sini. berbalek sekali lagi kepade topik ust habibi dan picaso. isu tentang saye berpakaian yg dianggap kurang sopan. ingin saye pertikaikan disini, hati saye memang sudah lame terbuke utk nenutop mahkota saye iaitu rambut. pada yg tidak beberape faham tentang ini... mahkota peribadi wanita terletak pade rambotnye. kerane rambot wanita akan mendatangkan syak wasangka pade kaum Adam. tentu sekali ust habibi faham bukan? bagus sekali. Alhamdullilah. seperti yg telah dijelaskan, menutop mahkota. saye maseh menganggapnye sebagai permulaan. jarang sekali utk melihat seseorang itu berubah secara mendadak. seperti mantan kekasih saye pernah berckp, '...sabar. it takes time...' setahu saye, saye tidak pernah mengangkat sumpah utk memakai jilbab. hati saye cume terbuke utk menutop mahkota (dan laen2 yg perlu) sahaje buat mase ini. jilbab dan fesyen terkini saye adelah dua definisi yg berbeza. InsyaAllah, jike diberkati Tuhan, akan saye menurut perintahnye dgn mengenakan pakaian yg mentup aurat dari hujung rambot ke hujung kaki. ohh. sebelum saye terlupe. kepade sesiape yg ingin mengutok atau mengeji saye, sile lah dapatkan cermin yg termurah di pasaran. Seperti ape yg telah diberitahu oleh teman saye, kalau tidak silap, Ikea sedang mengadakan jualan termurah besar-besaran. jangan terlepas peluang ya. ohh. mengape cermin? hmm. nilai-lah diri kamu sendiri di cermin dahulu sebelum kamu menilai orang laen yg tidak kamu kenali. derdosa u noe. sesungguhnye, manusia tidak lepas dari melakukan kesilapan.

Dengan itu, ingin saye, sekali lagi mengucapkan terime kaseh atas keperihatinan anda dan memohon maaf kepade sesiape yg kurang senang dgn pakaian saye. kepade sesiape yg tersinggung pule setelah membace keratan saye ini, maaf juge dipinta. Well, this is me. The way i am. :) i dress to please myself not others. i dress to please myself not for the public, not for the men. hati saye tetap pade yg SATU. sesungguhnye kite manusia ini diberi 'misi' dalan hidop. samada utk mengharunginya atau mengendahkannya lalu mengikut ke arah yg sesat. Alhamdullilah. setakat ini aku maseh mengingatimu. Tuntutan harianmu, tidak ku lupa. InsyaAllah. aku akan dituntun olehmu ke jalan yg benar.

you ppl dont think i dont knw you. ape lagiiii kau naaakkk... -___-

Pertikaikan lah...Renung-renugkan lah...

Wallah-hualam.

Bila Cinta Didusta

2009-08-04T15:48:00.008+08:00

i took the quiz! Farking true larr! aiyohhh. hahaha. oo0oo.. had essay writing early in the morn during love, relationship & sexuality class. initially, i hv no farking idea on wat to write. suddenly, those ideas came... based on experiences maahh. those bitter-sweet. *sighhhh* annnd a friend reminds me of this love malay song. we sang and dance lyk one mad woman in studio! :) Somehow, i lyk the lyrics. meaningful! here it goes...

Bila cinta didusta
Hati mula gelisah
Hilang kekasih hati
Hidup jadi merana

Insan jadi idaman
Kini dimilik orang
Cinta yang diimpikan
Putus di tengah jalan
Terpaksa mengalah

Mengapa menyinta
Andainya tak setia
Tak usahlah bercinta
Jika hanya berpura
Bila hati dah jemu
Mula berpaling tadah
Tak pernah difikirkan
Orang yang ditinggalkan
Tersiksa sayu pilu

Bila-Cinta-Di-Dusta
Ooo...oo merayu-rayuOoo...
oo ingin kembaliOoo...
oo meratap sayu...

Tidak mungkin orang simpati
Menoleh pun tak sudi
Andainya ditakdirkan
Cintamu didustai
Pastinya kau mengerti
Siksanya perpisahan
Hanyalah ditemani sesalan

~by screen~

its damn jiwang. but its damn meaningful!