Life is Just Like a Bowl of Cherries

thursday night everything's fine

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.

About The Unknown Creature
Hello, I'm an alien living in Planet X, had my 1st cry on 310790, and my name is Nuh-roll.
Be afraid, be very very afraid. I'm going to eat everyone and invade the Planet Earth.
Yes, you can start crying now.*evil laugh*

When it was Good [ 1:18 PM ]

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering. A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty.

What do you live for when all you were living for is gone?

Kan best kalau hidop ni mcm kat crite Korea ke crite Hindustan ke. Ok la starting happy2, pastu nangis..tapi ending mesti happy balek! Sayangkan, tu smue fantasy jer. Anw, ive been wanting to blog but im kinda umm my lazy? lol.

As for now, i really dont knw where to start. Yang aku tau skrg, aku tgh lost. Seriously lost in confusion!

Dulu, aku ingat im the Happiest girl in the whole wide world. Dulu, aku ingat aku takkan go thru any of these shits AGAIN (note the CAPS!) . Dulu, aku ingat ive made the right choice. Dulu, aku ingat He's the one. Dulu, aku ingat He's the reason of my Happiness. Dulu, aku ingat aku will change my perception towards guys. Tapi...

Sekarang, mcm tgh slowly changing jer. Entahlah, im still unsure. Is this a sign or what?

Everything happened like so fast..out of sudden. He kept mum. Silence. Aku pon heran. Its friggin weird tau. And so i asked. I went shocked, like seriously shocked when he said this..

According to him, he's clapping with one hand. Sape2 yg bengz tu, tk pham, meh aku explain. Die ckp all this while die ingat aku ni mcm so called tk anticipate in this rlsp! Boleh gitu? Then, all these while, ive been entertaining to all his needs to smue ape eh? Pelik. pelik..

So, okayla, aku pon feeling2 'gentleman' konon2 nak pujok ah. Tapi, sad ah, aku rase aku dah terlambat. He's alrdy badly hurt by the time I so called come to the rescue! He was damn 'cold' towards me. Wait! In the very 1st place, Salah aku ke?

Just because all these while, he's the one who's been iniating this & that, not ME making the 1st move, itu jer..? Salah aku ke?

Is it wrong if I want to take things slow?
Is it wrong if I dont want to rush things? (eh, mcm same jer - mepek nye aku!)
Is it wrong if I want to be diff from any other couple?
Is it wrong if I want EVERYthing to go smoothly?
Is it wrong if I want EVERRYthing to go with flow??

Sekarang, sape nak gi jwb ni smue? tssk! Chill la bang, kite maseh 'new' sey. Still Fresh per. Why rush? Ok la, yg dh tak sabar tu, confirm krg tgh perah otak kenape eh si nad ni nak take things slow, padehal its been half a yr alrdy.. yadda yadda yadda. Okay look, i bet u all knw wat happened ..tsskk..alaa rlsp aku yg dulu tu. Tons of obstacles. Tons of arguments. Tons of fights. Ade jer flaws. Ive learnt like farking alot! Aku tknk banana fruit two times. Tkya la eh aku elaborate panjang2 psl crite lame, nanti ade jer yg tk happy. Yeaa.. anw, the thing is, Im taking a chill pill now so dont rush me. I thought we've talked abt this sey Al. opps! Did i just mention his name? haha! Purposely btw. :)

And krg nak tau. Exactly last yr, on this very week.. aku tgh having a bad term dgn si .. tssk dektu tu laa. Tgh time2 aku nk start yr 3.. issh! Stress otak aku that time! Yg pelik tu, this yr, same thing happened.. the same timing, same problem, same o same but DIFFERENT person! Aku ni pembawak sial per sial? Kan mak marah ni.. issh! *mengucap dua kalimah syahadah*

Someone told me, 'eh, kenape eh kau tknk go all out in this rlsp? Im sry to say this ah, dulu bile kau dgn si die tu, u're willing to do anything. No. In fact everything siak just to make it up back! I thought u r the firm kinda person. Ape yg kau nak, kau die2 nak. Beh skrg, ape lagi? Talk things out ahh..'

Ahh.. yer ckp memang senang. Yg hv to face everything tu aku. Well, tu Nadia yg dulu. Fanatic in Love! hahaha. Now, gua dah cuci tangan babe! Gua mau rilek ah! (eh, ape ni aku mrepek?) Ok la, personally, im tired! Tired going after or the right word is CHASING after guys! Keje paling bodoh utk perempuan! Waste time, waste energy, waste airmate, waste ape lagi eh? mcm2 ah. Ade byk lagi bende lain aku blh buat, why waste all these things? Cepat agree adgn aku!!

Ade tu ckp, 'Kau ni btol2 serious ke dgn die? Bile die dh ckp die tepok sebelah tangan tu, abeh kau tak tau nk blg die ah yg kononnyer he's not alone? Die tu tk syiok sendiri. Kau pon hv the same feelings towards him..ni smue aku kene ajar per? Ckp la kat die yg kau syg die...'

Lagi satu punyer bengz. MACAM MANE AKU NAK CKP KLAU DIE 'COLD' KAT AKU?? Mulot ni mcm kene locked gitu. Kau mane tau ni smue. Hari tu kat dlm krete, die diiiiiiaaaam jer all the way. Aku pon takot nk bobal. *Shakes head, kalah wirid u*

Sekarang ni, aku leave everything to takdir je la ehh. Whatever will be, will be. Sometimes, i wonder, why do i hv to face all these? Why do they hv to go? Do i deserve all these? Bohong ah kalau aku ckp aku tk rindu die. Tuhan je tau ape aku tgh rase skrg. Eh, aku dh this close to saying this feelings out sey.. Pergi tanpa kata. Tersikse oi batinku. Aku nak nangis, tapi siape nak dgr suare aku yg mcm Siti ni? haizz, entah la eh.. maybe its just not the right time. Guess so. Kalau aku ade opportunity, memang aku nk ckp tapi kalau memang dh tkde jodoh, then.. i shall angkat kaki jalan.

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