Past vs. Present
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
thursday
night
everything's
fine
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
Swallowing The Bitterness...slowly
About The Unknown Creature
Hello, I'm an alien living in Planet X, had my 1st cry on 310790, and my name is Nuh-roll.
Be afraid, be very very afraid. I'm going to eat everyone and invade the Planet Earth.
Yes, you can start crying now.*evil laugh*
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Great Job ppl
[ 11:29 AM ]
One Thing is clear now. For now.
Best Landscape Master Plan Design Championship. (IMH project)
Had our presentation yesterday. Lyk finally. ugggh. Vanberg presented on behalf of us. Everything went as planned. The panel judges seemed to be interested in our proposal. and yes! we made it to the final round. Gonna hv the final presentation this Mon @ IMH. 5 grps were selected amg 13 participants. 1 was 4rm NUS, another 1 is 4rm Ngee Ann Poly and the rest were all from SP. hah! cool or wat! Good Job SP. To me, its not abt winning. Its abt the hardwork that each one of us had contributed! GREAT Job ppl. To be shortlisted best 5, aku dah happy. tk kesah klau tk menang. :) Thanks to Mdm Zainon, Ms Marilyn & Mr Russel for all ur guidance!
The grp with Mdm Zainon
F.A.M.E & Tierra. (Tierra is in too!)
Done with the presentation. So, i head down to ION orchard. Abah wanted to fetch me 4rm there. He planned to bring us out for dinner. konon2 tu nk celebrate both adek and my bdae. Thks abah & mummy! Food were awesome! :)
Photographer of the day: Nadra & Nasrin
Apart 4rm those fun & exciting activities. Sth came upon that has been distracting my mind the whole day. Got so badly affected due to that. Well, as u ppl knw. My taggy is currently in a mess. u knw i hate messiness. i'm still wondering y ppl lyk to interfere in my farking lyfe. nak kate aku ni popular tu, tak lar sgt. ntah larr eh. Initially, i thought ur intentions were good. Being sooooo concern abt my lyfe. Even my closest friends dont do all that. I kinda appreciate it lar cos u, as an outsider was brave enuf to come 4ward to give all those kinda comments. But....... it kept me thinking. who are u to tell me all that especially when u start giving me harsh remarks. ur tone seemed to tell me that u are not happy with the way i blog. Yup. I HAVE THE WEAKEST SOUL EVER! i cant move on. Not yet. My past is still lingering in me. my head, my heart.. everywhere. so? wat is that go to to do with u? i agreed with my sister. not being bias here. but it's somehow true. moving on is not as easy as buying an ice cream. It takes time my dear. i didnt know that the way i blog really affect u huh. i mean. if u dun lyk it.. okay, u may leave. feel lyk giving comments? okay. since my blog is not private anw. go ahead. But harsh comments that can bring me down and got me affected sooooo badly on my BIRTHDAY is seriously not needed here. i have feelings okay. i bet u hav feelings too. Agn, i'm saying, who are u to do all that? dont u believe in karma? u might not hv a blog or sth. ppl might not be hate-taggin u... but u never knw u might be experiencing similar situations as me in the future. i'm not hoping sth bad or wat but.. idk. u see. wat goes ard comes ard beb. annnnd. i m not those bitches/minahs out there who is soooo fanatic in taking revenge or wat.. dun worry. no matter how far u want to bring this matter ahead, i wont be entertaining all those. i've got faaaar more better things to do. i've seriously got no time to entertain all this childish acts.
Some said, the hate-tagger might be the one who msged me, harrasing me not to get back to h**** a few mths ago. Some said, might one of his girlfriendssss who he has been dating. Some said, might be h**** himself. Some said, 'skali, afiq?'. haha! whoever u are.. i really hope that u'll put everything to a stop. all this wont start if u didnt start tagging. i'm not stopping u 4rm tagging/viewing my blog. but all i cld ask for is.... stop those harsh comments. i knw who are u. this is my blog. my territory. i dont find it wrong blogging abt me and my past or history which u mentioned. why? whats up with that? its not lyk i'm cutting or piercing thru ur heart or sth. its just me and my blog. big deal ke? annd. if ur intention is to actually see me go disappointed lyk hell. well, i wld say. u've succeded in doing that! thks to u huh!
yes, u might be saying. 'kalau tknk org kasi harsh comments, go private larr. that way if u blog abt the president pon ppl wont knw.' well, to me.. i dun lyk gg private.this blog is lyk a piece of diary where i do my rantingsl, sharing with those who are close to my heart. and i have my own reasons on y i dont go private. orrr.. y not we put it this way. kalau tk suke ape aku blog, jgn bace ahh. amcm?
wait. the weirdest part is, i've been blogging and ranting abt me and my past since lyk waaaaay back in time. y this creature suddenly appear (out of nowhere) now? i mean lately. hv any idea? pelik kan? jgn2, ni nenek keropok tk? aiyoh. scary siow...
and to adek. i knw u love me lyk alot! u care for me and all. but i really hope that all this nuisance will stop. appreciate ur effort in protecting me. oh, btw, klau krg nak tau. knape suddenly nazira msok frame, is bcoz, i leave her into handling my blog ystrdy coz i was damn bz with the prstn. and. tk salah kan klau adek tlg kakak. i dont find it interfering. :) thks beb!
annnnnd yes! i cant deny. i still love him. i still cant get over him. Not yet. time is still needed. SIX FARIKING YEARS we've been 2gether!!! those memories is still in me. u are nobody to force me to move on. u think i lyk to live with my past? only god knws wat im feeling now. i really wish to run as far as i cld to leave my past behind. not wanting to rmbr all those memories we've once shared. but agn, its not that easy. might be easy for u. not for me. i applaud for ur strength! yes! u r strong. very very strong. rmbr, im NADIA. im not u. u r not me. so, we r diff u see.
They say that people who are meant to be together, always find their way back to each other. I don't know if I can believe that. I don't know if I can believe much of the ideas that I've believed in anymore. Believing and wanting to believe are two different things. You can believe in something if you see it, and you know it's there. But 99% of the time, you want to believe in something that's not there. And for me, I want to believe in a lot of things I don't see happening. I want to believe that love can last in this graceless age. I want to believe that dreams can still come true, no matter how long you put them on hold. I want to believe that good things happen to good people. But I hardly see any of this happening. What's left to believe in now?
Wait till Time tell. Oh Allah. Lead me the way. Show me the light.
thnks for the birthday gift b...
Some said, the hate-tagger might be the one who msged me, harrasing me not to get back to h**** a few mths ago. Some said, might one of his girlfriendssss who he has been dating. Some said, might be h**** himself. Some said, 'skali, afiq?'. haha! whoever u are.. i really hope that u'll put everything to a stop. all this wont start if u didnt start tagging. i'm not stopping u 4rm tagging/viewing my blog. but all i cld ask for is.... stop those harsh comments. i knw who are u. this is my blog. my territory. i dont find it wrong blogging abt me and my past or history which u mentioned. why? whats up with that? its not lyk i'm cutting or piercing thru ur heart or sth. its just me and my blog. big deal ke? annd. if ur intention is to actually see me go disappointed lyk hell. well, i wld say. u've succeded in doing that! thks to u huh!
yes, u might be saying. 'kalau tknk org kasi harsh comments, go private larr. that way if u blog abt the president pon ppl wont knw.' well, to me.. i dun lyk gg private.this blog is lyk a piece of diary where i do my rantingsl, sharing with those who are close to my heart. and i have my own reasons on y i dont go private. orrr.. y not we put it this way. kalau tk suke ape aku blog, jgn bace ahh. amcm?
wait. the weirdest part is, i've been blogging and ranting abt me and my past since lyk waaaaay back in time. y this creature suddenly appear (out of nowhere) now? i mean lately. hv any idea? pelik kan? jgn2, ni nenek keropok tk? aiyoh. scary siow...
and to adek. i knw u love me lyk alot! u care for me and all. but i really hope that all this nuisance will stop. appreciate ur effort in protecting me. oh, btw, klau krg nak tau. knape suddenly nazira msok frame, is bcoz, i leave her into handling my blog ystrdy coz i was damn bz with the prstn. and. tk salah kan klau adek tlg kakak. i dont find it interfering. :) thks beb!
annnnnd yes! i cant deny. i still love him. i still cant get over him. Not yet. time is still needed. SIX FARIKING YEARS we've been 2gether!!! those memories is still in me. u are nobody to force me to move on. u think i lyk to live with my past? only god knws wat im feeling now. i really wish to run as far as i cld to leave my past behind. not wanting to rmbr all those memories we've once shared. but agn, its not that easy. might be easy for u. not for me. i applaud for ur strength! yes! u r strong. very very strong. rmbr, im NADIA. im not u. u r not me. so, we r diff u see.
They say that people who are meant to be together, always find their way back to each other. I don't know if I can believe that. I don't know if I can believe much of the ideas that I've believed in anymore. Believing and wanting to believe are two different things. You can believe in something if you see it, and you know it's there. But 99% of the time, you want to believe in something that's not there. And for me, I want to believe in a lot of things I don't see happening. I want to believe that love can last in this graceless age. I want to believe that dreams can still come true, no matter how long you put them on hold. I want to believe that good things happen to good people. But I hardly see any of this happening. What's left to believe in now?
Wait till Time tell. Oh Allah. Lead me the way. Show me the light.
thnks for the birthday gift b...
Let The Tears Flow