Past vs. Present
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
thursday
night
everything's
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You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
Swallowing The Bitterness...slowly
About The Unknown Creature
Hello, I'm an alien living in Planet X, had my 1st cry on 310790, and my name is Nuh-roll.
Be afraid, be very very afraid. I'm going to eat everyone and invade the Planet Earth.
Yes, you can start crying now.*evil laugh*
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
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[ 7:42 PM ]
Tonite, a perfect Tuesday night where im staying here, ignoring mum's blabbering-s as usual, to do my dry rantings. hahaha! sry mak! :) ohh. dun worry. i'll clean up the mess soon.
Yea..soon. hahaha!!*nadia's-evil-laughter*
Ryte..June flew by just lyk that. Which is kinda good. i guess. hah! Here comes July. Gosh! Its tommorow lar! Fast huh! Damn fast! lyk any other kid in the world. wld be eager, looking 4ward 4 his/her birthday. (oh. as u guys noe, my birthday falls on the last day of july.duh! kalau tak tau, aku bunoh kau! hahaha!) But, not 4 me i guess. I hate how life can be this sulky. sry. i'm a kid who doesnt noe on how to appreciate life. hah! seriously. not 4 now..mabybe. i mean this is really gonna be a sulky one when u dont actually get ur wish fulfilled. wat more can i ask for my 19th? NO. frankly, aint expecting any gifts. nuff of those surprises..dresses..tops.. accesoriess..bags..shoes or watsoever. maybe ahh..(jeremy's accent.. XD) a wish aje will do. am not being a thick skin here. but, all i can say is, to those who are saving 4 me.. pls stop. faiza! duit tu g beli mkn je! am not hoping 4 anything 4rm u guys. Great companion..Great awesome chill out..Hearing laughters one after another or maybe silent laughter by Naz will do. Kau nye stare je dh blh buat aku smile. betol! tak bedek! :)
also..lyk any other kids in the world who hav their secret wishes on their birthday. apparently, i am wishing 4 sth that i guess no one in this world can grant it. not even abah or mummy. serious. aint lying here. i knw i cant get it. no more. but am still hoping 4 it though i knw i wont see it coming. hah! sad life sak this girl. kesiannye kau. (suke bobal sendiri? seronok?) ha-ha-ha! OMG i'm feeling kinda screwed. Damn! :(
its been 4 yrs.... i celebrated my day with my biggest smile! still remember the surprise made by faiz, nizzam, ashraf, khudsairi, arjuna, farahzyan and 'H' back in sec 3! was really a success one! the swensen ice cream cake was awesome! u guys sang 4 me in the sch canteen! u guys made me cried in frt of the crowd. :) wah! damn surprised laar! thx guys! also, not forgetting my girls.. naz, faiza and ain. they gave me a surprised too last yr. e2 really work lar coz i didnt expect their visit! haha! i wasnt feeling well actually and they suddenly appeared ryte at my doorstep of my BEDROOM! cool ar wat! :) siap dgn milo, nescafe, fruits.. + the gifts.. thx alot babes! thx to bibik too.
if only he......haizzz.... :( MAK!! ya nak baldi!! NOW!!!
...again... guys... if u want me to keep smiling...showing u my biggest and sweetest smile, do as i said k. :)
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Ryte my 2nd post is specially dedicated to any1 yg mkn 'babi'.. well, die yg berdose. :)
i dont knw y. suddenly, i feel lyk posting abt u. i guess, somehow, i can feel wat u r feeling ryte now. maybe. wait. this aint 'ji-mo' or wat.. ntah larr wat they call eh. i tried to put me, myself in ur kasot. yes. its not easy. its soooo hurtful. the pain is an excruciating one that not every1 cld actually imagine hw's it lyk. i knw u can do this.. u can..
theres 2 path 4 u. one is to walk alone on that boulevard or to get that old flame to accompany u. frankly.. i'm not surprised if u were to grab the 2nd choice. well, again.. who am i to stop u? on behalf of my other girls... i wld say.. we r only friends of urs.. who are we to stop u? stop having those negative thoughts. Just do what ur heart says.. its ur life. u decide. OMG!! mak another baldi pls!! (wats going on with me? hahaha!) okay, back to track! watever it is.. always rmbr. dont hurt urself.. also, not to let others hurt u. Cry now... but not too much. its okay.
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a short 'note' for me..
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